Naivety

I can't stop thinking that I have somehow turned myself into somekind of Chen Handong lately...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lan_Yu_(film))

Too Much Time

The biggest problem between me and Cedric is always about time. There's so little time for us to meet, we can only meet around 3-4 times a year. And there's less time to communicate everyday now that Cedric's already working. We barely chat just to ask how our day was and no more than that.
So here comes Steve into the picture.

At first, he's just an acquaintance of mine, no more than that. But lately he's been pushing deeper into my life, more than I want it to be. At first he does no more than daily greeting, wishing me a good day ahead, and those little things you get for someone who barely know. At first I didn't think about him too much, cos in my mind, he's just plain sweet and all. More and more he tries to be involved in my life, and when I ask him whether he has work to do or other things to pass time, he says no.

I mean, where in the world you would want a boyfriend whose job is only thinking about you all day long and nothing else?? He's working as freelancer btw. But isn't it what it means to be a freelancer, to organize your time more wisely so that you can be more productive? And not giving up work just because you are thinking about someone who's not even being closer than an acquaintance.

Don't get me wrong, I'm just playing nice to him thinking that his life is hard enough without me being harsh to him, but this annoys me. Really.

"Hi Chris, busy?"

"Hello Steve, ya kinda, how was your day today?"

"Nothing much, just stay at home, thinking about you all day, missing you." Whuat??

OMG, other guy might find it romantic, but not me definitely. Isn't it getting old after awhile? Or am I being heartless?

Is this just an irony because I want a boyfriend who has more time for me and I have this guy sent to me?

Change

 Ain't it funny how you think
You're gonna be OK
Till you remember things ain't never
Gonna be the same again
The same again

During this past 3 years, a lot of things have changed.
I had been graduated from college. I started working. I had a boyfriend.
I loved my job. I despised my boss. I meet a lot of new people. I traveled around places.
 
But somewhere deep within, I am still the same boy looking for his happiness...

I miss my old days though, memories are still, scattered all around the floor.
How much have I changed? Is it to the better or the worse?

I decide!

Psst!

Yes my dear readers, after been on hiatus for 3 years ++, I have decided to write in my blog back..
Lots of bittersweet memories had been written in the past, and I hope a lot more will be added in upcoming years.
Special acknowledgment for my friend Chan, it's because of him I remember that I still have this blog buried somewhere, and it tickled me to open this blog and read it again.
So here my readers, I'm coming back :-)