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From my recent visit to the beach...

Lomo Cameras

Stairway to Heaven

Long and Windy Road

Lover's Gate

I like to toy around with my phone camera at times, and fortunately my "workplace" provides me with too much time to take plethora of pictures in between of my work. My personal favorite between these pictures is the last one, Lover's Gate.

I like to think that those two trees in the last picture as a couple, guarding the entry gate into another world, just behind the bridge, although you might not be able to see the bridge in the background. There is small sign there to warn people that there's a bridge ahead. My crews said that the sign was distracting, but I like it in the picture.

Love love this lomo camera filter, it gives the image a vibrant and dramatic feeling, don't you think? And it's just so amazing nowadays, with software like Instagram or Camera360 Ultimate (no I have no connection at all with the software publishers), you can take professional looking photos with just your mobile phone.

Cop Beau

I wonder what it's like for having a cop as a boyfriend. You know, like Will's boyfriend in Will & Grace season finale :D
No need to be that hunky and gorgeous one though, decent one is enough. I always have a thing with guys in uniform, or clean-shaven guys, or clean-shaven guys in uniform, lol. That is such a turn on.
Why am I from out of nowhere talking about police boyfriend? Well, there's this police officer on duty in my workplace. His job basically is to secure the explosive bunker in where I work. Me, having to deal with explosives in our daily operation, for sure "have to" ask for his help opening and closing the bunker everyday.

"Good morning Mas Chris, have a job today?"

"Hello Mas Tono, ya I will have withdrawal today"

And then he will reply with the brightest of a smile that can be radiated from a cop under the sparkling sunshine. Okay, that's kinda like Edward Cullen in Twilight, lol, but I don't bluff. He always give me the sweetest smile when I approach the bunker every morning. Well, maybe not just to me, but still...
He's already 37 years old, reaching the mature adulthood stage, yum! Yet he still looked like he's in early 30. And his apparel choice also doesn't reflect his age. He has cute face, not that tall, but lean and slender abit muscular, with semi-mohawk hairdo. And he has super round butt from which I have to restrain my hand not to squeeze squeeze, haha...
"Mas Chris, you have a very nice fingers," said he one day. No kidding.
"Mas Tono has very long and thin fingers yourself." me answered, unsure where this conversation might lead to, lol.
"But I'd love to have fingers like yours, thicker than I have," he replied. For what? Stick it up your a**?? I can lend you a hand, if that's the case. Lol. Enough being a beyotch, Chris. Enough :b

He sometimes will tell how become a police officer can be very tiresome, his naughty naughty past, and how he always try to keep free and young spirit by mentoring juniors (I wonder what mentoring means, hee hee hee) in the police academy. I wouldn't mind if he gives me One of his mentoring session too, private one mind you. For me he's kinda different with the police officer stereotype that I think of. He's not one of those fat, old, fashion-missing officers with moustache and beard so long that you wish it should be used to mop the bathroom floor. Pretty much I have a nice time going to bunker while he's around.
Unluckily his schedule in the bunker had ended and he has to return back to the base, his position in the bunker is now filled with his junior (which I can tell, no less hotter than him, what's wrong with this place? Helloooooo, why can't they distribute cute police officers like him to Jakarta instead keeping 'em all here).

For all of you who wonders, he's straight with 3 daughters. But let's hope he might jump to the other side sometimes, haha.

I'm prepared to testify~ if loving you with all my heart's a crime, then I'm guilty~ *grin*

Professional Behavior

Working in the field means that you are more exposed to vast variety of people. And the more you work along with them, the more you can draw a line and read their characters so you will automatically adapt to them and get the most out of them.
If you have ever worked with Indonesian worker, my friend, you will realize that there is one thing common about them all. Sometimes they cannot just differ professional and personal life.
Like this morning, one of my crews spoke to a contractor worker in the company where I work in now. He was just telling the contractor worker nicely (call him Tiko from now), how to do certain kind of work much more safely and suddenly this Tike bursted out in outrage, yelling on how he's always blamed for things and ranting on how he just wants to work for a living here.
Aiyaa.... He got PMS or what???!!
First, my crew just spoke nicely. Second, what he told Tiko was for his own safety while working. And why suddenly Tiko bursted out like that? Only God and him knows why. Tiko might felt that he was attacking him personally instead of helping him to cope up with the pace of work safely.
I mean, I hate it when faced people with inability to discuss in polite and educated manner, cannot differ which is personal and which is professional. Most of the time this kind of people will burst out and calling for help from their friends around. A trait that I have already realised ever since I was a small kid and faced out with whole group of less educated people.

And sadly working in the field also means that I will face this more and more.
And in my opinion, that's why my friend, Indonesian workers are more prone to get abused while working abroad.

Sweet Saturday Playlist

Today is working day like usual, rather normal one. I stumbled upon a CD in the car drawer and put it into the CD player. Some of the songs were really nice and made me reflected back to the past, and some others just made me mellow. So here it is my friends, my playlist for today, enjoy!
1. Need You Know - Lady Antebellum
2. Mean - Taylor Swift
3. Somewhere Only We Know - Keane / Glee
4. One of Us - Joan Osborne / Glee
5. Shakespeare In Love (Remix) - Layla Kayliff

Somewhere only, somewhere only we know... *sing*

Naivety

I can't stop thinking that I have somehow turned myself into somekind of Chen Handong lately...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lan_Yu_(film))

Too Much Time

The biggest problem between me and Cedric is always about time. There's so little time for us to meet, we can only meet around 3-4 times a year. And there's less time to communicate everyday now that Cedric's already working. We barely chat just to ask how our day was and no more than that.
So here comes Steve into the picture.

At first, he's just an acquaintance of mine, no more than that. But lately he's been pushing deeper into my life, more than I want it to be. At first he does no more than daily greeting, wishing me a good day ahead, and those little things you get for someone who barely know. At first I didn't think about him too much, cos in my mind, he's just plain sweet and all. More and more he tries to be involved in my life, and when I ask him whether he has work to do or other things to pass time, he says no.

I mean, where in the world you would want a boyfriend whose job is only thinking about you all day long and nothing else?? He's working as freelancer btw. But isn't it what it means to be a freelancer, to organize your time more wisely so that you can be more productive? And not giving up work just because you are thinking about someone who's not even being closer than an acquaintance.

Don't get me wrong, I'm just playing nice to him thinking that his life is hard enough without me being harsh to him, but this annoys me. Really.

"Hi Chris, busy?"

"Hello Steve, ya kinda, how was your day today?"

"Nothing much, just stay at home, thinking about you all day, missing you." Whuat??

OMG, other guy might find it romantic, but not me definitely. Isn't it getting old after awhile? Or am I being heartless?

Is this just an irony because I want a boyfriend who has more time for me and I have this guy sent to me?

Change

 Ain't it funny how you think
You're gonna be OK
Till you remember things ain't never
Gonna be the same again
The same again

During this past 3 years, a lot of things have changed.
I had been graduated from college. I started working. I had a boyfriend.
I loved my job. I despised my boss. I meet a lot of new people. I traveled around places.
 
But somewhere deep within, I am still the same boy looking for his happiness...

I miss my old days though, memories are still, scattered all around the floor.
How much have I changed? Is it to the better or the worse?

I decide!

Psst!

Yes my dear readers, after been on hiatus for 3 years ++, I have decided to write in my blog back..
Lots of bittersweet memories had been written in the past, and I hope a lot more will be added in upcoming years.
Special acknowledgment for my friend Chan, it's because of him I remember that I still have this blog buried somewhere, and it tickled me to open this blog and read it again.
So here my readers, I'm coming back :-)