Dubai Dubai

Here I am, again waiting my night flight in B-town airport. I dunno why but I always have some kind of creative urge in the airport, haha...

This is my last day working for the company though, was feeling a bit mellow throughout the morning, but everyone has to move on, right?

Anyway, I am going to Dubai earlier next month, wondering what kind of gay scene does the city offer. I was browsing my way through Google last night, trying to get some more information about Dubai and the gay scene. But oh man... It was written in some site that "homosexuality is considered a serious offense to law and can be severely punished up to 10 years in prison".

I was like, "Say whaaaaaaaaaaat?"

Then I wondered why the job trip is in one of the Arab countries. Not US or Europe instead. I will be so much happier.

Actually there are still places that are considered gay-friendly there, but who knows? There might be possibilities that cute guy right there across the bar is a police officer in disguise. You never know. And I'd rather not trying to know, lol.

I mean, 10 years in prison is bad enough, even without the whole hullabaloo that will surely happen along with the reason of imprisonment.

Imagine it on Sunday newspaper headline...

 

Headline "Mr XXX is caught red-handed conducting allegedly homosexual activity" swirling around my head.

And you're doomed. And you cannot ask help from Indonesian embassy there. And not to mention the whole humiliation thing your family will have to go through. Urgh..

*in the Indonesian Embassy*

Me: "Pak, please help my case. I am under 10 years imprisonment threat."

Mr. Ambassador: "All right my child, as fellow Indonesian and our beloved country's ambassador, I will try to help with all my might. Now tell me what all of this is about.

Me: "I was caught red-handed cruising for guys at the gay bar."

Mr. Ambassador: "..............." *gasp in disbelief*

Awkward, no? That G word usually really does the trick, haha.

Behave Chris, behave...

 

Who Moved My Cheese?

After all the contemplations that I went through this past few months, I finally decided to move from my workplace. It's not without much hesitation that I took the decision, as this company has been part of my life for the last 3 and a half years.

Sometimes, people just have to break out of the comfort zone to search for a new "cheese". By saying cheese I am referring to Spencer Johnson's book, Who Moved My Cheese. A book about change management and how to deal with changes.

My boss asked me to wait, as there are some BIG changes that are about to happen in the next few weeks. That management is currently working on something to the benefit of all employees (Yeah, like what? Giving away free ice creams every Monday?). He added, that this may seems coincidental, changes are about to occur right after I submitted my resignation letter, but he hoped that I might rethink about my decision.

Well, but when I asked him about what kind of BIG surprise he has in store for us, his answers were just vague. I don't buy it. And he didn't speak that confidently like how I remember he usually speaks to us. These guys were just faking it to save their own ass.

Tell you what, in any organization like this, BIG changes are not gonna happen overnight. It needs commitment and continuous effort from every part of the company.

Here goes saying that if ever a relationship becomes too painful, you need to get out of it, as you might find another relationship but never another you. And I think, my relationship with this madhouse company has reached the limit where it hurts, thus I decided to leave.

Good bye, I guess..

苏打绿 - 小情歌

I was browsing through my song collection and stumbled upon this old sing that I used to love.

Reminds me of someone that is now out of reach *melancholy mode starts* haha...

Even after some time, this song still gives me chill every time I play it.

Enjoy...

这是一首简单的小情歌

zhe shi yi shou jian dan de xiao qingge

This is a simple love song

唱着人们心肠的曲折

chang zhe renmen xinchang de quzhe

Sing about the complicated heart of people

我想我很快乐 当有你的温热

wo xiang wo hen kuaile, dang you ni de wenre

I think I'm so happy, when having your warmth

脚边的空气转了

jiao bian de kong qi zhuan le

The atmosphere here has changed

这是一首简单的小情歌

zhe shi yi shou jian dan de xiao qingge

This is a simple love song

唱着我们心头的白鸽

chang zhe wo men xintou de baige

Sing about the pigeon in our heart

我想我很适合 当一个歌颂者

wo xiang wo hen shihe, dang yi ge ge song zhe

I think it is just right, when this song praise

青春在风中飘着

qingchun zai feng zhong piao zhe

The freshness of the spring flutters in the middle of windblows

你知道 就算大雨让这个城市颠倒

ni zhidao jiusuan da yu rang zhe ge chengshi diandao

You know, even if the storm makes this town upside-down

我会给你怀抱

wo hui gei ni huaibao

I can still give you a hug

受不了 看见你背影来到

shoubuliao kanjian ni beiying laidao

Unable to endure, seeing you go

写下我 度秒如年难挨的离骚

xiexia wo du miao ru nian nan ai de Li Sao

I write, second seems like year, difficult to be close to

就算整个世界被寂寞绑票

jiusuan zhengge shijie bei jimo bangpiao

Even if the whole world tied with lonesome

我也不会奔跑

wo ye bu hui benpao

Still, I won’t escape [from you]

逃不了 最后谁也都苍老

taobuliao, zuihou shei ye dou canglao

Unable to escape, everyone's getting old at the end

写下我 时间和琴声交错的城堡

xiexia wo shijian he qinsheng jiaochuo de chengbao

Writing down, a castle of mine where the time and melody intertwining in harmony

Amateur Surgeon 2

Have you guys tried it?

It's my latest addiction on iPad. Lol. Humour mixed with slightly gore, yet it wouldn't fail giving you fun for hours.

Think it has something to do with my old obsession of becoming a surgeon myself.

This game is universal, means you just meed to buy one and play it on either iPad or iPhone. But I recommend you to use iPad because with smaller screens it's hard to be precise when doing 'surgeries' on iPhone.

No String Attached

Contrary with what I used to believe, I am more into NSA (no string attached) sex lately. Lack of confidence about how man to man relationship could be long-lasting, was amplified with recent talk about that same topic with someone I knew from my neighborhood, who turned out to be gay as well (what a surprise!).

Looking for elusive love of my life seems like impossible task to do for now. Although hope that I would find it somehow, somewhere, is still there in the back of my mind. But for now, I'm going to take it slow and not rush into things.

In the last two days, I have met with 2 different guys just to look for what's available in gay scene around here. One was a timid young lad with nice personality, and the other one was mature early-30 handsome guy (so my type, lol). Both I met over the net through a dating site.

The young lad, let's call him Ard, was nice, shy, and naive, the characteristics of an early-bloomed gay in neighborhood. He was 21, quite well built and fair-skinned. He called me 哥哥 (gege / big brother in Chinese), haha. I'm old old old >.<

Things were said and done during the date, I implied that Ard was looking for long-time life partner, not just looking for fun. I told him that rushing into relationship with the first person you meet with is just plain wrong, since I was like the first person he ever meet from gay circle. Give yourself some time, I said, to at least get a big picture about the guy you are about to be together with.I told him that I am not looking for any relationship for now, simply because I need the time to settle my heart, and look for what I really want in life. But that didn't seem to affect him one bit, we had nice dinner at Central Park's Jun Nyan, and had a great chat over coffee at Starbucks.Almost midnight, I drove him home and had some more chat in the car in front of his home. He invited me to drop by since his parents were away and his servants were, of course, do not want to poke their nose to their master's business.

Details of what happened after that in his room of course won't be disclosed here since I never intended this blog to be erotica one at the first place *grin*If only walls could talk (but luckily they can't, and I prefer them in that way, lol). But one thing I and Ard agreed... Sex is great, and provides much refreshments to your dull mind in a way that you couldn't explain :p

I am more and more becoming like Chen Handong from Lan Yu it seems. Gee.

The next guy Leo, is different. I met him through Fridae like a year ago and been casually contacting each other ever since. Met him once before, but we weren't available back then. Now I just got out of 4 and a half year relationship and he just got out from 3 years of his. From the very beginning we talked much about our past relationships and how we still don't want to get attached for now, but sex is a different thing.As time passed, the talk getting dirtier and dirtier... Lol... And the fact that we were talking about those naughty stuffs in public place getting us hornier.

We went to cinema and bought ticket for two... It was working hour, so the place was kinda empty. Sat on the backside where nobody was aware of our presence.And boy... I don't even remember any single scene in the movie. I was too excited because that was my first time doing naughty stuff in the cinema! I really have to get a grip of myself, it's more like I would like to try literally anything lately. Anything.Well except for bondage. And S&M. And licking guys' ass. If you know what I mean, hehe.

 

Windowed Apps on Jailbroken iPad

If you have a jailbroken iPad, then you'll want to check out Quasar. As noted by Big Boss, The tweak lets you run each app in a separate window on your iPad. Each window can be resized, moved and closed just like a window on a full desktop OS. You can check out Quasar in the demo video below and then download the US$10 iPad app from the Cydia store.

I am sooo jailbreaking my iPad...