Hello, just want to tell ya that I changed my blog face. I really like this one. Hope you like it as much as I do=) The background is the picture of the skyline in Taipei. I chose it because my family came from there, a long long time ago, hehe.
Thanks to Aman in Singapore, the template is so awesome....
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Friday, April 28, 2006
夜曲 - Nocturnes
A part of Jay Chou's(周杰倫) song, Ye Qu...
一群嗜血的螞蟻
yi qun shi xue de ma yi
被腐肉所吸引
bei fu rou suo xi yin
我面無表情
wo mian wu biao qing
看孤獨的風景
kan gu du de feng jing
失去妳
shi qu ni
愛恨開始分明
ai hen kai shi fen ming
失去妳shi qu ni
還有什麼事好關心
hai you shen me shi hao guan xin
當鴿子不再象徵和平
dang ge zi bu zai xiang zheng he ping
我終於被提醒
wo zhong yu bei ti xing
廣場上餵食的是秃鹰
guang chang shang wei shi de shi tu ying
我用漂亮的押韻
wo yong piao liang de ya yun
形容被掠奪一空的愛情
xing rong bei lüe duo yi kong de ai qing
啊a烏雲開始遮蔽
啊a烏雲開始遮蔽
wu yun kai shi zhe bi
夜色不乾淨
ye se bu gan jing
公園裡
gong yuan li
葬禮的回音
zang li de hui yin
在漫天飛行
zai man tian fei xing
送妳的
song ni de
白色玫瑰
bai se mei gui
在純黑的環境凋零
zai chun he de huan jing diao ling
烏鴉在樹枝上詭異的很安靜
wu ya zai shu qi shang gui yi de hen an jing
靜靜聽
jing jing ting
我黑色的大衣
wo hei se de da yi
想溫暖妳
xiang wen nuan ni
日漸冰冷的回憶
ri jian bing leng de hui yi
走過的
zou guo de
走過的
zou guo de
生命
sheng ming
啊a四周瀰漫霧氣
si zhou mi man wu qi
我在空曠的墓地
wo zai kong kuang de mu di
老去後還愛妳
lao qu hou hai ai ni
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A group of bloodthirsty ants are attracted to rotten flesh
With an expressionless face
I watch the lonely scenery
Losing you
Love and hate start to become clear
Losing you
What else is there to care about?
When a dove no longer symbolises peace
I’m eventually reminded
That they are vultures feeding in the public square
I use a beautiful rhyme
To describe love being robbed
Oh
Oh
The dark clouds begin to cover
The colour of the night is not cleanIn the park
The echo of the funeral
Flying in the boundless sky
The white roseI gave you
Withered in the pure black surroundings
The crow is peculiarly very silent on the tree branch
Silently listening
My black overcoat
Wants to warm you up
The memories that are day-by-day becoming colder
Walk past
Walk past
The life
Oh
Hazy fog is all around
I am at the vast and boundless cemetery
I’ll still love you when I’m old
Is It About Me?
A few weeks ago…
Bored just sat at the afternoon lecture, I played with my cell-phone.
Didn’t feel like to play any games, I opened the ‘Contacts’ menu. I browsed along and try to remember any slightest memory about the person owning those names.
I found a name, Y (that I can hardly remember who he is).
*Create a message*
“Hello, how are you doing, Y? Hope you’re fine.”
*Send*
Not so long after, he called me, “Hello, who’s this? I’m sorry, pls refresh me...........”
And since that time, we’ve been communicating, through e-mail, messenger, and phone.
I like this Y guy. He’s sweet, funny, and can talk about almost anything (something I never get from guys I knew from a virtual chat room). Almost everyday I chat with him, maybe just share a little experience we got, maybe just for saying “Hi” or so. But I really appreciate the moments we’ve shared.
I didn’t write any post about this, lol. I’d like to keep it a secret. But that can’t be helped, so I write this post.
I dunno bout what he’s been thinking about me. He once told me to be more assertive, that he is an open-minded guy who can talk about anything, so it’s really not bother him for me to talk about this or that. Btw, there’s one similarity between us, we’re straight-to-the-problem person. It means we’re always telling what’s in our minds, the truth, even if it hurts. That makes me like him more.
Yesterday, suddenly he got that ‘bad mood’ thing, zipped his mouth so that I talked to him, he wouldn’t answer me. I send him a short message, he didn’t reply. And today, he was not as quiet as yesterday, but still, mutes.
I can stand almost anything. Those anger things. Even if you yell at me, I still resist. But don’t stop talking to me, ignoring me. It hurts me more than anything.
It hurts for me to get away from you. Not being able to know what you’re thinking. Is it about me? What have I done that made you this mad? Tell me pls.
Bored just sat at the afternoon lecture, I played with my cell-phone.
Didn’t feel like to play any games, I opened the ‘Contacts’ menu. I browsed along and try to remember any slightest memory about the person owning those names.
I found a name, Y (that I can hardly remember who he is).
*Create a message*
“Hello, how are you doing, Y? Hope you’re fine.”
*Send*
Not so long after, he called me, “Hello, who’s this? I’m sorry, pls refresh me...........”
And since that time, we’ve been communicating, through e-mail, messenger, and phone.
I like this Y guy. He’s sweet, funny, and can talk about almost anything (something I never get from guys I knew from a virtual chat room). Almost everyday I chat with him, maybe just share a little experience we got, maybe just for saying “Hi” or so. But I really appreciate the moments we’ve shared.
I didn’t write any post about this, lol. I’d like to keep it a secret. But that can’t be helped, so I write this post.
I dunno bout what he’s been thinking about me. He once told me to be more assertive, that he is an open-minded guy who can talk about anything, so it’s really not bother him for me to talk about this or that. Btw, there’s one similarity between us, we’re straight-to-the-problem person. It means we’re always telling what’s in our minds, the truth, even if it hurts. That makes me like him more.
Yesterday, suddenly he got that ‘bad mood’ thing, zipped his mouth so that I talked to him, he wouldn’t answer me. I send him a short message, he didn’t reply. And today, he was not as quiet as yesterday, but still, mutes.
I can stand almost anything. Those anger things. Even if you yell at me, I still resist. But don’t stop talking to me, ignoring me. It hurts me more than anything.
It hurts for me to get away from you. Not being able to know what you’re thinking. Is it about me? What have I done that made you this mad? Tell me pls.
Monday, April 24, 2006
Cut My Hair
After a few days been thinking, I decided to cut my hair. So yesterday I went to ANATA Setiabudi, my favorite place for getting my haircut. So I asked my best buddy, Ed to accompany me, as usual.
Nah, I talked to the receptionist and she asked me to wait for a while.
So I sat on the sofa. My eyes were wandering around. There were many activities that time. Many people may have decided to cut hair or just do manicure-pedicure at that time.
Then, there was this guy, who was doing pedicure for a lady. He kept staring at me, made me feel so uncomfortable. At that time I began to think that he saw something wrong with me and I thought that he would lose his interest for me in no time. But almost half hour then, and Ed told me.
“Cs, don’t you realize that the pedicure-guy there has been staring at you for so long?”
“Really? I think so. I realized it from the first time we came.”
“Whoa…He must has a crush on ya. Hehehehe.”
So I began to stare at him as he did on me. He was kinda cute, actually. At first he began to avoid my eyes. But tired did so, he replied me.
*wink**wink* Man….he started to flirt.
But pity us, the receptionist approached me and told me to do hair-washing before they cut it.
There I was, lied down at the chair while someone washed my hair. Because I detached my glasses, all I could see was blurry image. Once, my friend Ed passed the washing room to check whether I has finished or not. Then not so long after, I didn’t sure, I saw a glance of that pedicure-guy peeked on the washing room.
After got my hair washed, I asked Ed whether he saw that pedicure-guy passed on the washing room or not.
And Ed told me, “YES, THAT GUY PEEKED ON THE WASHING ROOM.”
“Wow”, dunno what to say.
Then Ed said, “Cs, that guy stared at me too, while you got your hair washed. He even tried asking me to follow him to the bathroom. Winked and smiled at me before entered the bathroom. Can’t ye believe?"
Awwww man…!
Nah, I talked to the receptionist and she asked me to wait for a while.
So I sat on the sofa. My eyes were wandering around. There were many activities that time. Many people may have decided to cut hair or just do manicure-pedicure at that time.
Then, there was this guy, who was doing pedicure for a lady. He kept staring at me, made me feel so uncomfortable. At that time I began to think that he saw something wrong with me and I thought that he would lose his interest for me in no time. But almost half hour then, and Ed told me.
“Cs, don’t you realize that the pedicure-guy there has been staring at you for so long?”
“Really? I think so. I realized it from the first time we came.”
“Whoa…He must has a crush on ya. Hehehehe.”
So I began to stare at him as he did on me. He was kinda cute, actually. At first he began to avoid my eyes. But tired did so, he replied me.
*wink**wink* Man….he started to flirt.
But pity us, the receptionist approached me and told me to do hair-washing before they cut it.
There I was, lied down at the chair while someone washed my hair. Because I detached my glasses, all I could see was blurry image. Once, my friend Ed passed the washing room to check whether I has finished or not. Then not so long after, I didn’t sure, I saw a glance of that pedicure-guy peeked on the washing room.
After got my hair washed, I asked Ed whether he saw that pedicure-guy passed on the washing room or not.
And Ed told me, “YES, THAT GUY PEEKED ON THE WASHING ROOM.”
“Wow”, dunno what to say.
Then Ed said, “Cs, that guy stared at me too, while you got your hair washed. He even tried asking me to follow him to the bathroom. Winked and smiled at me before entered the bathroom. Can’t ye believe?"
Awwww man…!
Friday, April 21, 2006
Poor C***
Just right after posted my previous post yesterday I met this guy (again) in IRC, the cheesy brained one, as I told ya before. The name’s K.
I‘ve met him once. And guess what… I just didn’t like this guy the first time I met him. This guy is kinda blabbermouth type. Blabber about his money, his appearance (Wait till you see the real him, ughhh noooo!), or whatever he can blabber about.
Well then, back to the topic. At first I didn’t reckon it was him, though. But after a lil’ bla-bla, chit-chat for a while, I realize that it was him….
“Hello”, he said at first.
“Hello there. Asl pls”
“27, m jkt” ”u?”
“19, m jkt here” I said as usual.
“May I know yer name?”
“My name’s Chris”, I said. “What’s yours?”
“Wow, funny. My name’s K. Kinda resemble your name, isn’t it?”
Then at this point I started to begin suspicious.
I asked, “Well, Where do you live, K?”
“I lived in A”, he answered without any doubt.
“The A apartment?”
And to proof my suspiciousness, he said “Yes, yes. I lived there.”
BINGO!! It was him.
And to make it sure, I asked him about his nickname I knew before.
“Are you C***?”
“Yup. Do you know who I am?”
I dunno why I did this. I really hate to be in conflict with anybody, coz I really believe that everything may be solved without any clash. Maybe because I really dislike him or so. Or due to that peevish-to-the-cheesy brained-guy things; I said to him.
“Sure I know who you are. You are a blabbermouth seducer.”
Then I finalize it, “Bye”.
I‘ve met him once. And guess what… I just didn’t like this guy the first time I met him. This guy is kinda blabbermouth type. Blabber about his money, his appearance (Wait till you see the real him, ughhh noooo!), or whatever he can blabber about.
Well then, back to the topic. At first I didn’t reckon it was him, though. But after a lil’ bla-bla, chit-chat for a while, I realize that it was him….
“Hello”, he said at first.
“Hello there. Asl pls”
“27, m jkt” ”u?”
“19, m jkt here” I said as usual.
“May I know yer name?”
“My name’s Chris”, I said. “What’s yours?”
“Wow, funny. My name’s K. Kinda resemble your name, isn’t it?”
Then at this point I started to begin suspicious.
I asked, “Well, Where do you live, K?”
“I lived in A”, he answered without any doubt.
“The A apartment?”
And to proof my suspiciousness, he said “Yes, yes. I lived there.”
BINGO!! It was him.
And to make it sure, I asked him about his nickname I knew before.
“Are you C***?”
“Yup. Do you know who I am?”
I dunno why I did this. I really hate to be in conflict with anybody, coz I really believe that everything may be solved without any clash. Maybe because I really dislike him or so. Or due to that peevish-to-the-cheesy brained-guy things; I said to him.
“Sure I know who you are. You are a blabbermouth seducer.”
Then I finalize it, “Bye”.
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Those Cheesy Brains on IRC
Dunno why, every time I logged on IRC I always met a few dicks who thinks dat they are better than others. Who they think they are? They’re no more than guys with a shallow thoughts, judge others from their appearance or so. After chit-chat for a while and trade pics, they just fly away because don’t feel like the pics.
For you that are not gay, maybe it’s some kind of weird; about how we (gays) care about stuffs like this. But it’s true.
Well I say SOMETIMES it is needed to see someone’s physical attribute, but for me it’s no more than that. I admit I like to see those gorgeous models; I would love if some one like that be my boyfriend. But beside of that, of course I will care about their personalities, about how they interact with me or others. Because FOR ME, all that important from someone’s not only how gorgeous they look, but also something deep inside them.
I don’t say all this because I’m not attractive or so. I don’t want to blabber about it all. I believe you all come visit my blog here to know me and my thoughts better. And this is my thoughts.
I never regret about my bisexuality or how I get plunged into it. But one that I regret is how those cheesy brained people treat others. Well maybe they have a plus there, but why can’t they think that despite of their appearances, everyone sure has his/her own positive sides.
I hope some other time I can find anyone who has same passion as mine.
I hope so.
For you that are not gay, maybe it’s some kind of weird; about how we (gays) care about stuffs like this. But it’s true.
Well I say SOMETIMES it is needed to see someone’s physical attribute, but for me it’s no more than that. I admit I like to see those gorgeous models; I would love if some one like that be my boyfriend. But beside of that, of course I will care about their personalities, about how they interact with me or others. Because FOR ME, all that important from someone’s not only how gorgeous they look, but also something deep inside them.
I don’t say all this because I’m not attractive or so. I don’t want to blabber about it all. I believe you all come visit my blog here to know me and my thoughts better. And this is my thoughts.
I never regret about my bisexuality or how I get plunged into it. But one that I regret is how those cheesy brained people treat others. Well maybe they have a plus there, but why can’t they think that despite of their appearances, everyone sure has his/her own positive sides.
I hope some other time I can find anyone who has same passion as mine.
I hope so.
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Bye Bye Cell-Phone
I lost my cell-phone yesterday. Hiks…:-(
I don’t really care about the phone, really. All I care about is the SIM cards.
There are 3 cards in that cell-phone. The credit in those cards was Rp 400,000.00 in total.
Owwwghhhh, how could I lose that cell-phone!!
I don’t really care about the phone, really. All I care about is the SIM cards.
There are 3 cards in that cell-phone. The credit in those cards was Rp 400,000.00 in total.
Owwwghhhh, how could I lose that cell-phone!!
Monday, April 17, 2006
The Keys To My Heart
Again...from blogthings. Seems I've addicted to these things, haha.
| The Keys to Chris's Heart |
 In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
My Inner Blood Type
Again...I go to the blogthings and grab some quizzes. This time is about my inner blood type.
Kinda funny, becoz it's the same as my actual blood type.
Kinda funny, becoz it's the same as my actual blood type.
| Chris's Inner Blood Type is Type A |
 You are most compatible with: A and AB Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter |
Thursday, April 13, 2006
My Photos
Some bloggers who visited my blog asked me
“Chris, would you like to let us see your pictures?”
“D’ya have any photos??”
“Why don’t you put your photos? So we can see what you look like?”
Nah nah, sure I have photos, even plenty of it, haha.
That’s not like I don’t want you to see those pics, but I think the time is not right.
I promise I’ll post my pics here. Soon I hope =)
“Chris, would you like to let us see your pictures?”
“D’ya have any photos??”
“Why don’t you put your photos? So we can see what you look like?”
Nah nah, sure I have photos, even plenty of it, haha.
That’s not like I don’t want you to see those pics, but I think the time is not right.
I promise I’ll post my pics here. Soon I hope =)
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Kartika Sari Accident
There’s many occurrence happened in this few days. Dunno how to start.
Mmmm, I’d like to start with this news I got from my friend, Ho.
If you have ever gone to Bandung, West Java, there is a famous and big bakery shop named Kartika Sari. The shop sells many delicious bakeries, snacks, and other stuffs like that. It even has its own restaurant; named Madame Sari, whose sells kinds of European cuisine.
I heard that not long ago the Kartika Sari has become Rudy Hadisuwarnos property.
In case you don’t know who Rudy Hadisuwarno is; He is a famous and succesful entrepreneur who’s working in the beauty and hair care field. He has many spa and hair care centers in Indonesia.
It is all caused by an accident, though. The grandchild of the Kartika Sari former (dunno who his name is) gambled in Las Vegas and has spent total 75 billion Rupiah. Quite a money, isn’t it? And because he couldn’t pay it so he had to sell the Kartika Sari business. And the one who bought it was Rudy Hadisuwarno.
I don’t talk about the owner changing here. I just feel a bit sad because of that; since, you know, the former of Kartika Sari business (it means the gambler’s grandfather) difficultly started that business a long ago. It even said that he started the business by selling the bakeries door to door by using a cart. Can you imagine? And now when the business has developed and success; ZAP!!! It all disappeared. Back to zero.
How dare he is. Breaking all that.
And now every time I go to Kartika Sari, I will remember about this.
P.S: I will tell my mom too, I know she will be interested.
Mmmm, I’d like to start with this news I got from my friend, Ho.
If you have ever gone to Bandung, West Java, there is a famous and big bakery shop named Kartika Sari. The shop sells many delicious bakeries, snacks, and other stuffs like that. It even has its own restaurant; named Madame Sari, whose sells kinds of European cuisine.
I heard that not long ago the Kartika Sari has become Rudy Hadisuwarnos property.
In case you don’t know who Rudy Hadisuwarno is; He is a famous and succesful entrepreneur who’s working in the beauty and hair care field. He has many spa and hair care centers in Indonesia.
It is all caused by an accident, though. The grandchild of the Kartika Sari former (dunno who his name is) gambled in Las Vegas and has spent total 75 billion Rupiah. Quite a money, isn’t it? And because he couldn’t pay it so he had to sell the Kartika Sari business. And the one who bought it was Rudy Hadisuwarno.
I don’t talk about the owner changing here. I just feel a bit sad because of that; since, you know, the former of Kartika Sari business (it means the gambler’s grandfather) difficultly started that business a long ago. It even said that he started the business by selling the bakeries door to door by using a cart. Can you imagine? And now when the business has developed and success; ZAP!!! It all disappeared. Back to zero.
How dare he is. Breaking all that.
And now every time I go to Kartika Sari, I will remember about this.
P.S: I will tell my mom too, I know she will be interested.
Sunday, April 09, 2006
What Sign Should Chris Be?
Find this funny quiz as I browsing along.
How interesting. It can guess my sign correctly =)
But I don't really burritos though, ehehe.
| You Should Be A Gemini |
 What's good about you: witty and energetic, you're simply the most fun to be around What's bad about you: you're flighty - losing interest in people and projects quickly In love: you enjoy the "honeymoon phase," but after that it's hard for you to stick around In friendship, you're: likely to have many groups of friends, with many different interests Your ideal job: mime, guru, or cartoonist Your sense of fashion: casual and simple You like to pig out on: fast food, especially burritos |
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Jomblo Syndrome
I want a relationship, I admit, I want it to last forever, of course, who doesn’t? But I am busy, I have to go to school, and I am a workaholic, I like to work, to see results, to get things done. Besides, I'm easily bored with those long-term things. As such, I can't put in my 100% in an rltshp, and that'll be selfish on my part.
But there are so many ppl out there, surely at least one will be able to accept me, even so, I cannot give that person my full at this point of time, when I am prone to leave him/her.
Thus, I can only have short term, so called, which is unrealistic, selfish and a hinderence, so I rather stay single.
My last relationship:
The girl: I had a deep feeling for her, say…since I was in kindergarten. But as time passing by, I didn’t have any feeling or so for her. When I asked her to be my girl, not so long after, I realized that I don’t love her as my girlfriend, more like my bestfriend.
Some kind of Joey & Dawson (Dawson’s Creek?).
The guy: He was the bad guy typical. Like in those ‘berandalan’ movies: Go out for parties every night, always fail and latest in class. While I’m practically the first, literally. I didn’t think I can handle him, LOL. So we break-up.
**berandalan = It means “thugs”
But there are so many ppl out there, surely at least one will be able to accept me, even so, I cannot give that person my full at this point of time, when I am prone to leave him/her.
Thus, I can only have short term, so called, which is unrealistic, selfish and a hinderence, so I rather stay single.
My last relationship:
The girl: I had a deep feeling for her, say…since I was in kindergarten. But as time passing by, I didn’t have any feeling or so for her. When I asked her to be my girl, not so long after, I realized that I don’t love her as my girlfriend, more like my bestfriend.
Some kind of Joey & Dawson (Dawson’s Creek?).
The guy: He was the bad guy typical. Like in those ‘berandalan’ movies: Go out for parties every night, always fail and latest in class. While I’m practically the first, literally. I didn’t think I can handle him, LOL. So we break-up.
**berandalan = It means “thugs”
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Sleepy Day
Today is sooo… weary. I got up at 3 o’clock in the morning coz I had an exam today .The exam was on 7 o’clock in the morning.
I planned to wake up earlier so I can study better, since I didn’t have much time to study yesterday.
And now I get sleepy because I just got sleep about 3 hours…>_< huhu…
Went to canteen with Ed, my best buddy and ate some spaghetti.
I found some guy, suspiciously gay, hoho…I noticed there are more than I expected.
Sometimes I want to have a boyfriend. Bakka-chan, I adore you =b
I planned to wake up earlier so I can study better, since I didn’t have much time to study yesterday.
And now I get sleepy because I just got sleep about 3 hours…>_< huhu…
Went to canteen with Ed, my best buddy and ate some spaghetti.
I found some guy, suspiciously gay, hoho…I noticed there are more than I expected.
Sometimes I want to have a boyfriend. Bakka-chan, I adore you =b
Monday, April 03, 2006
What My Face Say
| What Your Face Says |
 Overall, your true self is reserved and logical. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situation, you seem like you're oblivious to the stress. |
Tung Desem Waringin Seminar
Yesterday, I and my friend Ty attended a seminar presented by Mr. Tung Desem Waringin, the most famous Indonesian motivator and marketing plans genius.
My intention was just want to know whether he is as terrifying as people said or not.
At first, I didn’t reckon that he can change my perception of life.
From the way he talked and interact with people to the way he think, I realized something. This man can really make someone feel strong and powerful. Able to do everything s/he wants. Able to put aside his/her fears and doubts. Able to break away the self-limit that everyone has. I’m not bubbling over here. This man sure has a power.
For the first time in seminars I attended, I cried.
I’m not afraid to confess. Still, this man gave me my courage, my power, my dreams, and my self-confidence that have lost few years ago.
This is I am now, a man with his dreams. Try to make it be a reality. Can you see me at the top? Cause I’ll see you from there.
My intention was just want to know whether he is as terrifying as people said or not.
At first, I didn’t reckon that he can change my perception of life.
From the way he talked and interact with people to the way he think, I realized something. This man can really make someone feel strong and powerful. Able to do everything s/he wants. Able to put aside his/her fears and doubts. Able to break away the self-limit that everyone has. I’m not bubbling over here. This man sure has a power.
For the first time in seminars I attended, I cried.
I’m not afraid to confess. Still, this man gave me my courage, my power, my dreams, and my self-confidence that have lost few years ago.
This is I am now, a man with his dreams. Try to make it be a reality. Can you see me at the top? Cause I’ll see you from there.
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