Get Laid

The followings are my date’s story with Mouse. I’ll write it as chronologic and as detail as I can here.

My mobile phone rang when I was in class,
“I’ve arrived in B-town!”. From Mouse.

“Hehe… I’m so excited lor:-) See you at 6 ya Mouse!”

I have few lectures until 5 pm, so I was kinda in hurry. Fortunately, my last lecture today, which supposedly ended at 5 pm, ended earlier. Huah, gave me more time to prepare everything for the outing.

Got home, and took a bath. It’s still 5 o’clock, so I wasn’t late. I chose my apparel quite carefully, wanted to give him a good first impression of me. After all, it’s our first date. So I wanted everything goes okay. Ah, me being girlie here, lol.

05:55 pm, I walked from my house to the place we’ve agreed, at a café at D Plaza. I walked up the stairs and waited him there… Haha, just like in those romantic movies lar..
Right after I arrived, I SMS him, “Hi, it’s me, I’ve arrived lor, waiting upstairs.”

And right after I received the delivery report, he approached me from back. Said,
“Hai, Chris ya?”
And I was just answered blankly, “Ah, yea, Mouse?”

Then we shook hand. Waw, so formal, haha. We sat near the balcony, so we can see people passing by. Ah, we stared at each other shyly and nervously, smiling. I realized, the way he talked, and laugh, and everything, and even his apparels and necklace choice is the same as mine. A slight thought flashed in my mind, that he’s how I will look like in the future, when I reach 28 y/o :-/

And I started the conversation, asked how his trip was earlier. We chit chat here and there, spent about half an hour there. I saw one of the waiters looked on us, maybe got suspicious about us (since I heard that this café were a place for gays do outing, especially on weekend). Duh, I didn’t give it a damn la. We had beautiful time together.

I felt although he and I have quite wide age difference, we still can connect somehow. I didn’t have any difficulties to talk and laugh with him. As if we have met long long ago before.

Felt hungry, we then went to the Kaca Mata, a Medan restaurant at Paskal Hypersquare. I know it isn’t a romantic place to have a date, indeed. But he said that he want to try ‘nasi babi campur’ there (which I recommended before in one of my e-mail to him). We had nice ‘nasi babi campur’, and continuing our chat, he told me about his ex, his life experience, and so so. He kinda similar with me in this futile-love-searching thing. He said that it has been his worries that he wouldn’t ever meet the right one for him because of his responsibility to his family (see my last post). He also said that he just wants to have a bisexual partner now, because maybe some time in the future, he should be married. He was so open and honest to me. I like that kind of person, though.

In return, I told him about my ex too, about how we broke up and about our relationship after we broke. Kinda ironic, since my ex was also 28 y/o when we first met (just like Mouse). And he’s also bisexual. And also have an obligation to be married. And the reason why we broke up back then was because he married someone. And that we was still good friends after we broke up. And after quite some time, I realized that I might be a third-party in his marriage. And that I realized that the situation must be changed. And that I cut our contact until now.

Yea, we finally concluded that love is uncertain and that we are unlucky in this thing, haha. He also told me that he has closed his Trevvy account, stop believing that his other half would come up from there. Since everyone only gives him kisses and spanks. Just one or two care enough to leave even a little message (it’s me, in this case). Well, maybe I should reconsider to close mine too, I said.

He insisted that everything went to his charge. Yeah, I couldn’t say no for his sincerity. At least, I said, I wanted to pay for the parking fee lar. Don’t want him to be a sugardaddy, I said. He laughed, hear me saying that… Full enough after eating, have nowhere else to go, we decided to come to my dorm. He wants to see how I live daily, wheeee.

I gave him a peek on my daily live by letting him visit my room. Let him browsing through my CD and music collections. And also let him view few of my porns, ahaha. And as a souvenir, I gave him one of my porn collections, which he really liked. I hope he would save it carefully, not letting him forget me lar, kekeke.

Night went cold, wind blew quite slowly, and it sounded so far away…. And it happened so naturally, he kissed me. Asked me whether I want to be with him tonight or not. You know what I mean, right?

I didn’t have any hesitation at all. I held him tight and kiss him. So it happened…

So tender and soft, it all happened and ended before we could even realize it.

I don’t have any regret. Even IF we both don’t have any opportunity to meet each other again, it’s okay. All I care about is that tonight he’s all mine.

It wasn’t my desperation form in finding my other half that I would do ‘that thing’ with anyone who wants it, though. I just felt, that it’s a right thing to do, with him.

Pity us, not so long after that, while we were still in bed, hugging and starring at each other, my friend Ann came, and ruins the entire romantic ambience. Darn!!!

We quickly jumped to wear our apparel, duh. Then, his older sister called, asked where he was, and at what time he would go home.

This is the time we should be separated. I do have a presentiment that this isn’t our last, though. Said goodbye, hold him once more, let him go home…

And he said to me in an SMS after he arrived home, that we should keep in touch, a love note from him. Some time I should go play to his hometown. Also wished me have tight sleep and a nice dream.

What do I do now? What am I feeling?