Government Gone Too Far?

What next?

And to think of such thing is actually endorsed by government. Well, what I can say..., it seems like we are reversing back to our root of ancient civilization at least 500 years. And not to mention, what a great way to spend hard-earned tax paid by the lovely taxpayers there.

Luckily Indonesian government is still playing ignorant, haha...

The Education Ministry had endorsed "guidelines" to help parents to identify gay and lesbian "symptoms" in their children so they can take early corrective measurements.

The guidelines list four symptoms each of gays and lesbians:

Symptoms of gays:

-Have a muscular body and like to show their body by wearing V-neck and sleeveless clothes;

-Prefer tight and light-coloured clothes;

- Attracted to men; and

- Like to bring big handbags, similar to those used by women, when hanging out.

Symptoms of lesbians:

- Attracted to women;

- Besides their female companions, they will distance themselves from other women;

- Like to hang out, have meals and sleep in the company of women; and

- Have no affection for men.

"Once the children have these symptoms, immediate attention should be given," the guidelines warn.

According to Sin Chew Daily, the guidelines published by Yayasan Guru Malaysia Bhd and Putrajaya Consultative Council of Parents and Teachers Associations, and endorsed by the Education Ministry, were launched during a seminar in Penang yesterday.

The seminar on "Parenting in addressing the issue of LGBTs (lesbians, gays, bisexuals and transgenders)" was organised by Yayasan Guru Malaysia Bhd and officiated by Deputy Education Minister Mohd Puad Zarkashi.

Penang is the fourth state to hold such a seminar, after Selangor, the Federal Territory of Kuala Lumpur and Perak, and yesterday's seminar in Penang was the 10th in the country.

Puad is quoted by Sinar Harian today as saying that the exposure of symptoms of gays and lesbians was the best approach to address the spread of such unhealthy phenomenon among students.

Source: http://www.malaysiakini.com/news/208795

iPhone 5

Was finally released yesterday. Yeay.

It's one thing to covet for.

For more details, dear readers, please visit www.apple.com

Taken for Granted

Is 'bahasa keren' of the word 'dimanfaatkan'.

Guy A met this Guy B online, where they initially started exchanging messages. And after some time, those messages turned into endless Whatsapp and phone calls session, where they would share the stories of each other, over their past, and their current pursue of happiness.

They were quite sure that they were heading toward that same direction, aiming relationship that could last. Well, maybe not necessarily in romantic department, but more like of a friendship. Who knows if that might leads into something else.

Guy B asked Guy A to buy him souvenirs from Guy A's work trip abroad, even demanded Guy A buy another thing while he already bought one for Guy B. And when Guy B went on a trip somewhere, not even a single magnet fridge bought for Guy A. No, not the money or the value of the souvenir that counts.

Guy A is quite a tech savvy, always tune-in to the latest gadget news and always excited talking about how good that Android phone, or which one the winner of Ultrabook of the Year is. But how did Guy B ruin the excitement? By turning to Guy A every time he has a problem with his notebook and asking for tech advice for every single teeny-weeny bit computer problem and buying guide. *slap on the back*

Guy B had some problem with work, and expecting Guy A to be there to console him and lend an arm to cry on. Even went further, asked Guy A to be there for him while Guy B crying his heart out, pitying himself all day long. Telling stories about how poor he is and asking Guy A for understanding why he kind of ignoring Guy A.

Not a single word was even said by Guy B, asking how's Guy A doing. Just asking Guy A to be there always. No, not the feeling nor the time spent that only counts.

Already taking shape?

You have a bad day, taking one down. Sing a sad song, just to turn it around.
~ Daniel Powter

Yeah yeah yeah, I am not babysitting a crybaby. Cry there, for all I care.

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Reflection

Has anyone ever felt tired at times for being gay? Quite often I think about my life so far lately (hey, a lot of free time for daydreaming here in the field), and I feel that things would have been so much (as in soooo much) easier had I been straight.

This thought might be result from all my past relationships with guys and the skepticism that comes with it, lol. I feel kinda disoriented.

Of course I am not regretting the truth, in fact I probably wouldn't become what I am today if I were straight in the first place. But ya, being straight comes with perks for certain things. Like not having to come out to your family and friends for example. And finding spouse potential is not that big of a problem, I think, without people to judge the 'normality' or the 'nature' of relationship.

Lately I've been watching my friends getting married, and have kids. And yet I am still wandering around, trying to find my prince charming somewhere, somewhere. And I dunno, after I find the right man, so what... I still cannot have kids (which is one of the essences of marriage, I think) unless I adopt one. Surrogate mother is out of question. Because the thought of 'planting' my seed in someone else's womb and letting her going through all the maternal things while the child grows inside her, only to take the child away from her just feels not right. Do you agree with me?

I am losing my interest in woman, sexually. And now I come up with all this concept of NSA with guys and not really believe man to man relationship could be long lasting (esp. On a very rare case, you dear couples out there :D). Great.

I don't want to lead a lonely life, of course. Nobody wants that. But after quite some time, you will feel more skeptical of things like finding the perfect man through gay dating site (Which is what I am doing basically, by the way. Mock me). But where else to find good guy?

I am not really into gay scenes by the way. Most of the gay cliques are superficial (no offense, nor trying to be clique expert) and well, simply too exclusive to let anyone else joining. I rarely saw them talking about quality books or gadgets, for example, or things other than hotbods, branded items, discounts, and body care. Not that I do not enjoy such conversations, but talking about those things again and again. Come on... Gimme a break here. We are civilized and educated people and should behave more like one.

There is a proverb. All the good guys are taken or gay. Now all I have to do is finding the gay ones, haha...

And preparing to have dogs as my backup plan.

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Fatal Mistake

Gosh, I almost did unforgivable fatal mistake today. I miscalculated the distance needed to detonate explosive trains, almost resulting in a catastrophe.

I'm really blessed, God still reminded me on time through the voice of my friend. Thanks God... Thanks God...

You all don't think that I actually believe in God, do you? :)

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那些年 - Those Years

I want to have someone to whom I will sing this song to later on :-)



又回到最初的起点
you hui dao zui chu de qi dian
Back to the starting point

记忆中你青涩的脸
ji yi zhong ni qing se de lian
In my memory, I see your young face

我们终于来到了这一天
wo men zhong yu lai dao le zhe yi tian
We have finally reached this day

桌垫下的老照片
zhuo dian xia de lao zhao pian
The old photographs under the table

无数回忆连结
wu shu hui yi lian jie
Linking to countless memories

今天男孩要赴女孩最后的约
jin tian nan hai yao fu nuu hai zui hou de yue
Today, a boy will keep his last date with the girl


*又回到最初的起点
you hui dao zui chu de qi dian
Back to the starting point

呆呆地站在镜子前
dai dai de zhan zai jing zi qian
Standing in front of the mirror dumbly

笨拙系上红色领带的结
ben zhuo ji shang hong se ling dai de jie
Clumsily tieing a knot on a red tie

将头发梳成大人模样
jiang tou fa shu cheng da ren mo yang
Combed hair to appear as an adult

穿上一身帅气西装
chuan shang yi shen shuai qi xi zhuang
Wearing a handsome suit

等会儿见你一定比想像美
deng hui er jian ni yi ding bi xiang xiang mei
When I see you in a while, it’ll be better looking than you expected



好想再回到那些年的时光
hao xiang zai hui dao na xie nian de shi guang
Wish that (we) could go back to those years

回到教室座位前后　
hui dao jiao shi zuo wei qian hou
When we were sitting in the classroom, in front back position

故意讨你温柔的骂
gu yi tao ni wen rou de ma
(Doing something to get) purposely scolded from you gently

黑板上排列组合　
hei ban shang pai lie zu he
Pairing arrangement written on the blackboard

你舍得解开吗
ni she de jie kai ma
Are you willing to let go/ separate it?

谁与谁坐他又爱著她
shei yu shei zuo ta you ai zhe ta
Whoever sits with whoever, he will love her


Chorus
那些年错过的大雨
na xie nian cuo guo de da yu
Those missed years of heavy rain

那些年错过的爱情
na xie nian cuo guo de ai qing
Those missed years of romance

好想拥抱你　
hao xiang yong bao ni
I really want to hug you

拥抱错过的勇气
yong bao cuo guo de yong qi
Embrace the wasted /missed courage

曾经想征服全世界
ceng jing xiang zheng fu quan shi jie
Wanted to conquer the world before

到最后回首才发现
dao zui hou hui shou cai fa xian
But looking back in the end, I realized

这世界滴滴点点全部都是你
zhe shi jie di di dian dian quan bu dou shi ni
Every little thing in this world is all you


那些年错过的大雨
na xie nian cuo guo de da yu
Those missed out days of heavy rain

那些年错过的爱情
na xie nian cuo guo de ai qing
Those missed out years of romance

好想告诉你　
hao xiang gao su ni
I really want to tell you

告诉你我没有忘记
gao su ni wo mei you wang ji
Tell you that I never forgot

那天晚上满天星星
na tian wan shang man tian xing xing
That night, when the sky was full of stars

平行时空下的约定
ping xing shi kong xia de yue ding
In parallel time and space, we made a promise

再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你
zai yi ci xiang yu wo hui jin jin bao zhe ni
If we meet again, I’ll hug you tightly

紧紧抱著你
jin jin bao zhe ni
Hug you tightly

Repeat from *
Repeat chorus

(Please note that this is our best effort, so, it's not 100% accurate.)

Expectation

Everyone has expectation, don't we?

When you know someone new, realize it or not, we will have sets of expectations that following that particular person. For example, when someone messaged you in Grindr, he must have some expectation from you. Either having ons, befriend you, look for beer buddy, or something else.

You and me has different sets of expectations, that's apparent. So when your set of expectation is different than my set, how should we resolve?

This post was actually inspired by my latest Fridae 'incident' if I may say so. so I have this guy sent me a message, asking how I'm doing and such, usual stuff. I replied him casually, as I have stated so many times on my last posts here that I'm not really looking for another relationship (well unless the one to commit relationship with is ready for some long distance action, of course).

We replied each other messages for quite some time, chatting about the current affairs, our activity, and we exchanged number and Facebook. I was hoping more of friendship though, and this guy, Jay, seems fit my ideal image of a healthy friendship. Every few days, Jay and I will just exchange nonchalant messages about how our day was, and how our trip was going, as we both often travel to different cities for work. Since he's younger than me, I even refer him as didi - younger brother and that worked both ways, he also referred me as gege - big brother.

So then, this is the part when things get abit complicated. I restored my laggy Blackberry phone to original factory setting, and it's so unusual of me to forgot creating backup of the phone contact. And ya, creating phone backup for Blackberry is just damned difficult, which partly explains why I could forgot about it at all :p So ya there I was, losing all the numbers there so I couldn't contact him for around a week or so. One day, come this message.

Jay "Missing for one week :("

Me "Ya, I lost my phone setting after reformatting, been planning to message you on facebook instead to ask for your phone number"

Jay "Halah, just say that you forget about me already" ONE. Things start to get weird here... And at the moment, I just promised myself that if he blurt another weird or intimate-inducing phrase again, I would tell him clearly that I had no other intention than just being friends.

Me "Ya, so unusual of me forgot creating backup so I lose all phone numbers in there."

Jay "So why didn't you just message me on Facebook right away?" Hello duuude... We're not even boyfriends, what's with the interrogative behavior?

Jay "I miss youuuu, you knooow? I'm coming to Dubai next week next week btw." Whamm, TWO. I. Need. To. Tell. Him. Now.

Me *trying to be as easy as possible* "Okay didi, let's meet for some lunch. But well ya, I have no expectation at all ya" BOOM. Bomb dropped.

Jay "..."

And he just doesn't reply to me ever since.

I don't understand this, is it that easy to crush on someone in this man to man world?

I will rephrase that above question more specifically, Is it that easy to claim 'ownership' over someone after just a few casual chats?

Please show me, am I that one that's wrong or it's just him plain shallow? I never, for once, gave him impression that I was in for a relationship. I even shared stories about my beer and fuck buddy here, geez... Had I known it would be like this, I won't even bother replying him in the first place.

Guess we cannot make everyone happy.

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Worst Date Ever

I just reached my room after one whole day shopping spree, again.

Feeling tired, yet slightly feel emptiness inside. The suite is quiet with silence hanging in the air at times. And such silence, is a perfect ambience for daydreaming and reminisce what has happened recently.

Few days ago I met this guy, Alan. I knew him from Jack'd, a Grindr alternative I use while I'm here in UAE. Do you guys know that Grindr is banned from running from local internet network here?

Where was I? Oh ya, Alan. He was looking for a long term relationship, and was looking forward to see me. Like many times I had said to other guys I meet, I wasn't in a rush to start a new relationship, I'm more looking for friends... Friends with benefit are also fine, but not relationship. And ya he insisted on trying to change my mind.

Long story short...

From the talking, the way he pushed himself toward me, the moment we kissed (It was DRY and unpleasant... Both literally and figuratively), to how he pinched my nose slightly. It all felt wrong. DEAD WRONG.

This may sounds cliche as some of you might have heard that first kiss sometimes is a deciding factor whether there will be next date or not. For me, this is the moment I feel it that way. Second date is a no no, definitely.

Never before I resent the feeling of being with a guy, but it was before I meet him. Every single move and gesture, just as if it's like a repetitive chore. The sex itself was meaningless, in a rush, just fulfill our unsatisfied desire of physical love. No more than that.

After finished, all that left was just a disgust feeling. I wanted him to go, as fast as he could. That feeling went even bigger and bigger until he finally left. There was a big 'huffffffffffff, finally....' moment at that time.

Am I becoming heartless now? Or in the middle of process of becoming straight? This last one is very unlikely, I guess :-/

 

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The One That Got Away

I missed us, baby.
But we're no longer each other's muse.

Summer after high school when we first met
We made out in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th Birthday
We got matching tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor
And climb to the roof
Talk about our future
Like we had a clue
Never planned that one day
I'd be losing you

In another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

I was June and you were my Johnny Cash
Never one without the other we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you
I put those records on (Whoa)

Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the Blues
It's time to face the music
I'm no longer your muse

But in another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The o-o-o-o-o-one [x3]
The one that got away

[Bridge:]
All this money can't buy me a time machine (Nooooo)
Can't replace you with a million rings (Nooooo)
I should've told you what you meant to me (Whoa)
'Cause now I pay the price

In another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The o-o-o-o-o-one [x3]

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

Boyfriend

 

I just heard that my bestie, Ed, has just 'jadian' :-)

I'm truly happy for him. I hope that the lucky guy is truly kind and loves him, Ed deserves it.

Now it's my turn to bring this ship into the shore and throw away the oar forever (with whhhhoooooo???). Duhz, such lame analogy, excuse me my dear readers :D Where are thou, my Prince Charming?

Congratss cyynnnn! Wish you both all the best!

And remind me to bring your birthday gift from Dubai *cipika cipiki*

 

Shopping Spree in Dubai Summer Sale

This is all my loot for today...

No I didn't buy every single variant of Bodyshop body butter. I only bought peach, and papaya, and shea, and several others Bath and Bodyworks Shower gel (which one of them actually smells like Bailey's Irish Cream)! Haha... That's a lot!

The good thing is everything is discounted 40% because of Dubai Summer Sale.

Do you know that so many (branded) items are discounted up to 70% during this annual sale? Even Massimo Dutti went further by discounting their premium blazer collections up to USD 120. I missed that one, sigh!

So it's shopping spree, baby!

 

Twisted Cinderella Story

Sometimes,

I just wonder if Prince Charming is actually riding his white horse, just to seek for his Prince.

Forget Cinderella. She's too ordinary.

 

Tante Nora-K

Imagine this conversation...

"Halo Tante.. apa kabar?"

"Aaaaaaah, Chris... Baru aja Tante sama om Atung omongin kamu di mobil tadi." (It's funny how she is bold enough to admit that she and her husband talking about me behind my back. Amazing!)

"Tante dengar kamu sekarang kerja di Dubai yaa?"

"Ah, nggak juga Tante. Dengar dari mana?" (How did she even manage to her about that?!!)

"Kamu sudah punya pacar belum?"

"Belum Tante, masih cari2" (Iya, looking for boys, not girls. Ha!)

"Look no further! Ini ada anak Tante... Puput!!" (She fiercely calls her daughter and literally. Yes my dear readers, LITERALLY pushing her towards me).

"Puput, nanti sebelum pulang jangan lupa tanya nomor telepon koko. Jangan lupa ya!"

That scene really did happen in the wedding ceremony of the daughter of my mum's old acquaintance. Yesterday.

I was so happen to attend the wedding because I know the bride and her family so well. Had I knew I would meet this Tante Norak in this wedding, I would refuse to come...haha.

And you know what, right after I could free myself from that perfect embodiment of norakness, her husband "si Atung" jumped replacing her place interrogating me in even more norak-fashion than his wife (not to mention his fashion-missing choice of apparel).

He asked me how much I earn every month, where I work, all of the benefit I received from workplace, etc etc.

What is this??!! A collaboration plot to matchmake me and their daughter?? Measuring bibit-bobot-bebet of the son-in-law-to-be?

My mum and dad saw the whole charade, of course. And we all, know too well about the norak family's background. Know too well about the money-grubbing history of the whole family lineage.

I am sooooo not coming to wedding ceremony *shake head*

*planning to go look for eyecandies elsewhere* lol...

 

Dubai Dubai

Here I am, again waiting my night flight in B-town airport. I dunno why but I always have some kind of creative urge in the airport, haha...

This is my last day working for the company though, was feeling a bit mellow throughout the morning, but everyone has to move on, right?

Anyway, I am going to Dubai earlier next month, wondering what kind of gay scene does the city offer. I was browsing my way through Google last night, trying to get some more information about Dubai and the gay scene. But oh man... It was written in some site that "homosexuality is considered a serious offense to law and can be severely punished up to 10 years in prison".

I was like, "Say whaaaaaaaaaaat?"

Then I wondered why the job trip is in one of the Arab countries. Not US or Europe instead. I will be so much happier.

Actually there are still places that are considered gay-friendly there, but who knows? There might be possibilities that cute guy right there across the bar is a police officer in disguise. You never know. And I'd rather not trying to know, lol.

I mean, 10 years in prison is bad enough, even without the whole hullabaloo that will surely happen along with the reason of imprisonment.

Imagine it on Sunday newspaper headline...

 

Headline "Mr XXX is caught red-handed conducting allegedly homosexual activity" swirling around my head.

And you're doomed. And you cannot ask help from Indonesian embassy there. And not to mention the whole humiliation thing your family will have to go through. Urgh..

*in the Indonesian Embassy*

Me: "Pak, please help my case. I am under 10 years imprisonment threat."

Mr. Ambassador: "All right my child, as fellow Indonesian and our beloved country's ambassador, I will try to help with all my might. Now tell me what all of this is about.

Me: "I was caught red-handed cruising for guys at the gay bar."

Mr. Ambassador: "..............." *gasp in disbelief*

Awkward, no? That G word usually really does the trick, haha.

Behave Chris, behave...

 

Who Moved My Cheese?

After all the contemplations that I went through this past few months, I finally decided to move from my workplace. It's not without much hesitation that I took the decision, as this company has been part of my life for the last 3 and a half years.

Sometimes, people just have to break out of the comfort zone to search for a new "cheese". By saying cheese I am referring to Spencer Johnson's book, Who Moved My Cheese. A book about change management and how to deal with changes.

My boss asked me to wait, as there are some BIG changes that are about to happen in the next few weeks. That management is currently working on something to the benefit of all employees (Yeah, like what? Giving away free ice creams every Monday?). He added, that this may seems coincidental, changes are about to occur right after I submitted my resignation letter, but he hoped that I might rethink about my decision.

Well, but when I asked him about what kind of BIG surprise he has in store for us, his answers were just vague. I don't buy it. And he didn't speak that confidently like how I remember he usually speaks to us. These guys were just faking it to save their own ass.

Tell you what, in any organization like this, BIG changes are not gonna happen overnight. It needs commitment and continuous effort from every part of the company.

Here goes saying that if ever a relationship becomes too painful, you need to get out of it, as you might find another relationship but never another you. And I think, my relationship with this madhouse company has reached the limit where it hurts, thus I decided to leave.

Good bye, I guess..

苏打绿 - 小情歌

I was browsing through my song collection and stumbled upon this old sing that I used to love.

Reminds me of someone that is now out of reach *melancholy mode starts* haha...

Even after some time, this song still gives me chill every time I play it.

Enjoy...

这是一首简单的小情歌

zhe shi yi shou jian dan de xiao qingge

This is a simple love song

唱着人们心肠的曲折

chang zhe renmen xinchang de quzhe

Sing about the complicated heart of people

我想我很快乐 当有你的温热

wo xiang wo hen kuaile, dang you ni de wenre

I think I'm so happy, when having your warmth

脚边的空气转了

jiao bian de kong qi zhuan le

The atmosphere here has changed

这是一首简单的小情歌

zhe shi yi shou jian dan de xiao qingge

This is a simple love song

唱着我们心头的白鸽

chang zhe wo men xintou de baige

Sing about the pigeon in our heart

我想我很适合 当一个歌颂者

wo xiang wo hen shihe, dang yi ge ge song zhe

I think it is just right, when this song praise

青春在风中飘着

qingchun zai feng zhong piao zhe

The freshness of the spring flutters in the middle of windblows

你知道 就算大雨让这个城市颠倒

ni zhidao jiusuan da yu rang zhe ge chengshi diandao

You know, even if the storm makes this town upside-down

我会给你怀抱

wo hui gei ni huaibao

I can still give you a hug

受不了 看见你背影来到

shoubuliao kanjian ni beiying laidao

Unable to endure, seeing you go

写下我 度秒如年难挨的离骚

xiexia wo du miao ru nian nan ai de Li Sao

I write, second seems like year, difficult to be close to

就算整个世界被寂寞绑票

jiusuan zhengge shijie bei jimo bangpiao

Even if the whole world tied with lonesome

我也不会奔跑

wo ye bu hui benpao

Still, I won’t escape [from you]

逃不了 最后谁也都苍老

taobuliao, zuihou shei ye dou canglao

Unable to escape, everyone's getting old at the end

写下我 时间和琴声交错的城堡

xiexia wo shijian he qinsheng jiaochuo de chengbao

Writing down, a castle of mine where the time and melody intertwining in harmony

Amateur Surgeon 2

Have you guys tried it?

It's my latest addiction on iPad. Lol. Humour mixed with slightly gore, yet it wouldn't fail giving you fun for hours.

Think it has something to do with my old obsession of becoming a surgeon myself.

This game is universal, means you just meed to buy one and play it on either iPad or iPhone. But I recommend you to use iPad because with smaller screens it's hard to be precise when doing 'surgeries' on iPhone.

No String Attached

Contrary with what I used to believe, I am more into NSA (no string attached) sex lately. Lack of confidence about how man to man relationship could be long-lasting, was amplified with recent talk about that same topic with someone I knew from my neighborhood, who turned out to be gay as well (what a surprise!).

Looking for elusive love of my life seems like impossible task to do for now. Although hope that I would find it somehow, somewhere, is still there in the back of my mind. But for now, I'm going to take it slow and not rush into things.

In the last two days, I have met with 2 different guys just to look for what's available in gay scene around here. One was a timid young lad with nice personality, and the other one was mature early-30 handsome guy (so my type, lol). Both I met over the net through a dating site.

The young lad, let's call him Ard, was nice, shy, and naive, the characteristics of an early-bloomed gay in neighborhood. He was 21, quite well built and fair-skinned. He called me 哥哥 (gege / big brother in Chinese), haha. I'm old old old >.<

Things were said and done during the date, I implied that Ard was looking for long-time life partner, not just looking for fun. I told him that rushing into relationship with the first person you meet with is just plain wrong, since I was like the first person he ever meet from gay circle. Give yourself some time, I said, to at least get a big picture about the guy you are about to be together with.I told him that I am not looking for any relationship for now, simply because I need the time to settle my heart, and look for what I really want in life. But that didn't seem to affect him one bit, we had nice dinner at Central Park's Jun Nyan, and had a great chat over coffee at Starbucks.Almost midnight, I drove him home and had some more chat in the car in front of his home. He invited me to drop by since his parents were away and his servants were, of course, do not want to poke their nose to their master's business.

Details of what happened after that in his room of course won't be disclosed here since I never intended this blog to be erotica one at the first place *grin*If only walls could talk (but luckily they can't, and I prefer them in that way, lol). But one thing I and Ard agreed... Sex is great, and provides much refreshments to your dull mind in a way that you couldn't explain :p

I am more and more becoming like Chen Handong from Lan Yu it seems. Gee.

The next guy Leo, is different. I met him through Fridae like a year ago and been casually contacting each other ever since. Met him once before, but we weren't available back then. Now I just got out of 4 and a half year relationship and he just got out from 3 years of his. From the very beginning we talked much about our past relationships and how we still don't want to get attached for now, but sex is a different thing.As time passed, the talk getting dirtier and dirtier... Lol... And the fact that we were talking about those naughty stuffs in public place getting us hornier.

We went to cinema and bought ticket for two... It was working hour, so the place was kinda empty. Sat on the backside where nobody was aware of our presence.And boy... I don't even remember any single scene in the movie. I was too excited because that was my first time doing naughty stuff in the cinema! I really have to get a grip of myself, it's more like I would like to try literally anything lately. Anything.Well except for bondage. And S&M. And licking guys' ass. If you know what I mean, hehe.

 

Windowed Apps on Jailbroken iPad

If you have a jailbroken iPad, then you'll want to check out Quasar. As noted by Big Boss, The tweak lets you run each app in a separate window on your iPad. Each window can be resized, moved and closed just like a window on a full desktop OS. You can check out Quasar in the demo video below and then download the US$10 iPad app from the Cydia store.

I am sooo jailbreaking my iPad...

Boy, Tale of Childhood

When you asked me whether I expected something from you.
I lied if I said that I did not.
There's still a tiny bit part of me, that hoped that this might be it. Though rush is proven unnecessary.
Had I braced myself to embrace the power of dismissal, I shall not contemplate.
Cowardice shouldn't be rewarded, after all.

After all of the meaningless faces, it still leave me wondering.
Wondering...

And the more I do, the less I know.

Damn!

Andrew Christian's Locker Room Payback

I'm no fan of the underwear though. But man... Andrew Christian really knows how to use sexuality to sell their products...
Warning guys, NSFW. Racy contents in the video :-)

Dilemma of a (Geeky) Gay Guy

This post was made in an airport lounge in B-town while I was waiting for my long-delayed night flight. Inspired after long long chat session with a friend of mine, who's really not into gay scene yet desperately yearns to find love.

At times, we (geeky) gay guys find it hard to make new gay friends. Mostly the case is, we meet some guys and try to make friends online. In gay universe, knowing your friend is gay from childhood is such a rare case. Even myself fully realize that I am into guys after some time back then. So unlike straight people, at times we turn our head into those online dating sites or gym.

So we had divided the gay guys channels of meeting other guys into 3. Feel free to add more.

• Online dating sites
• Gym
• Friend's reference

Clubs are out of options because it's definitely a big no-no for most of us. Plus, do you really want to look for life-partner candidates in a club? Doubt it.

Now I will dig down deeper on option number one. Let's leave number two and three for later elaboration.
How do you determine if someone is worth to make friends with, online?
Most of the time, we will end up decide whether someone worth befriend or not from his appearance. Which is not how we start to relate with someone in real life.
Not to be hypocrite, that's also the occurrence with me, at times. I will at times reply messages or hearts that I got based on what I see at first.

Hearts vs Messages
Well, do you take hearts seriously? Dating site like Fridae offers two options for leaving your trace to ones you like. By sending hearts, or send the guy a message.

Most guys will just try initiate an endless heart exchange session instead of trying to start a real conversation with you. This is tiresome. Complete waste of time.
Some guys do take hearts seriously. For me at least I will send hearts to only select people that I like, and I sometimes look at someone's profile to see how many hearts he has exchanged. If I see thousands of hearts received, I will get an instant prejudice that the guy is a player. Although that might not be true. But I can't help it. Just that. Prejudice. A. Player.

Messages seem more polite. And to the point. And not wasting time. Which leads us to my point below.

How do you start conversation with total strangers? I'm no good in this.
Think it is the most difficult part about trying to make friends online, don't you think?

• Do you start with complimenting how he looks?
• Or start relating with him from his 'describe yourself' section? Starting by saying how you have similar thoughts, same hobbies, or having similar experience?
• Or just go directly asking him out to meet up for a coffee (in my opinion, that's one reason why coffee house are everywhere these days) and continue from there?
• ???

Pffft... I just want to be known for who I am, not just how I looks. First impression is important, but what's even more important is what lies beneath. Why is it so hard?

I just need you to undress me... Figuratively :)

Set Fire to The Rain

What a marvelous young lady :-)



I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they're strong
But my knees were far too weak,
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew.
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

When I lay with you
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you here forever
You and me together
Nothing is better

'Cause there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew,
All the things you'd say,
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
Where it felt something die
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time!

Sometimes I wake up by the door,
That heart you caught must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you.

[Chorus:]
I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

I set fire to the rain,
And I threw us into the flames
Where it felt something die
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time, ohhhh!

Oh noooo
Let it burn, oh
Let it burn
Let it burn

Talk About Being Picky

Just today I stumbled upon someone on Fridae who among other things, wrote on his 'About Me' section "I am very picky, so if I don't reply you're out of chance".
Super confident, isn't he?

Was the guy who wrote that good looking? Nah.
Was the guy who wrote that smart? By looking at that sentence alone, nah.
Was the guy who wrote that worth checking out? Nah nah nah.
Was the guy who wrote that delusional? Maybe.

Think this guy will not get much hearts let alone messages by end of the day.

莫艳琳-带走

Reminds me to my recent trip to the beach....

莫艳琳 - 带走
Mo yan lin - Dai zou

收录：宅情歌
shou lu zhai qing ge

海 慢慢把沙的足迹淹埋
hai man man ba sha de zu ji yan mai
谁 在看风和扬起的帆
shui zai kan feng he yang qi de fan
猜 你已经不会来
cai ni yi jing bu hui lai
象天空留下的空白
xiang tian kong liu xia de kong bai
想开 在潮水退去之后离开
xiang kai zai chao shui tui qu zhi hou li kai
但现在 还为什么继续忍耐
dan xian zai huan wei shi me ji xu ren nai
爱 只留给了等待
ai zhi liu gei liao deng dai
等多久也没有答案
deng duo jiu ye mei you da an
我收起看不见的结果
wo shou qi kan bu jian de jie guo
背起所有梦
bei qi suo you meng
让记忆在时间的海底沉没
rang ji yi zai shi jian de hai di chen mei
也许在幻想的尽头能遗失了寂寞
ye xu zai huan xiang de jin tou neng yi shi liao ji mo
是不看不听不说
shi bu kan bu ting bu shuo


我写下带不走的承诺
wo xie xia dai bu zou de cheng nuo
放下所有痛
fang xia suo you tong
就让他被退去的海水冲走
jiu rang ta bei tui qu de hai shui chong zou
也许在天的另一头
ye xu zai tian de ling yi tou
能留一条彩虹
neng liu yi tiao cai hong
把所以记忆全部带走
ba suo yi ji yi quan bu dai zou
想开 在潮水退去之后离开
xiang kai zai chao shui tui qu zhi hou li kai
但现在 还为什么继续忍耐
dan xian zai huan wei shi me ji xu ren nai
爱 只留给了等待
ai zhi liu gei liao deng dai
等多久也没有答案
deng duo jiu ye mei you da an
我收起看不见的结果
wo shou qi kan bu jian de jie guo
背起所有梦
bei qi suo you meng
让记忆在时间的海底沉没
rang ji yi zai shi jian de hai di chen mei
也许在幻想的尽头能遗失了寂寞
ye xu zai huan xiang de jin tou neng yi shi liao ji mo
是不看不听不说
shi bu kan bu ting bu shuo
我写下带不走的承诺
wo xie xia dai bu zou de cheng nuo
放下所有痛
fang xia suo you tong
就让他被退去的海水冲走
jiu rang ta bei tui qu de hai shui chong zou
也许在天的另一头
ye xu zai tian de ling yi tou
能留一条彩虹
neng liu yi tiao cai hong
把所以记忆全部带走
ba suo yi ji yi quan bu dai zou

Paulaner Brauhause

Just yesterday I went out with my girl friends to catch up with each other's life. They were my close friends back then in high school and we haven't met for like 4 years or so due to our busy schedule.
We met at Puri Mall and four of us went to Ah Mei Cafe for late dinner. There was Lan, who just recently broke up with her Indian boyfriend, Princess who just ended her long relationship (6 years!) with her boyfriend, and of course me.
Reckon the similarities between us? *grin*
We all just recently been out of our long relationship, if you would call it so. And the funny thing is, all of us had long distance relationship there. Lan worked in similar condition like me, in offshore location, and her boyfriend was working in another country. Same thing goes with me and Princess, working in remote area and only meet for quite some time in a year.
Last person Jeanne, doesn't count, she wasn't belong in our group back then in high school actually. We all just knew here quite well and decided to asked her to join us.

Girls (and boy) night out! Paulaner Brauhause!

Paulaner is a German bar located in East Mall Grand Indonesia, they have signature dish like crispy pork knuckle, and home-brewed lager beer. But unfortunately they don't make the beer temporarily due to newer government regulation that prohibit restaurant and bar to brew their own alcoholic beverages
But hey, the live band was above average, and I really recommend the place for hang out after work-hours.

Flavor-infused beers we ordered

Jokingly, we said that the whole gist of going to the bar is for looking new candidates for next relationship, but it ended up we talked about other people at the bar..

Hey, that guy in fedora there looked hot!

(really, he oozed hotness all over him, that's me saying)
No, I now prefer Malay-looking one.

Psst... Do you think that the couple at the table next to us had a quarrel over bad sex?

Hahaha.. that is an outfit with "I'm ready to get laid" statement printed all over it!

How I miss spending time with my old friends... We wanted to get through the night going to Immigrant, a club inside Plaza Indonesia just across the Grand Indonesia building. But all the good thing has to come to and end, Princess' dad called her and asked her home earlier, duhz!
But nevertheless, that was one great night to remember :-)

Dear Dick: Quick to the Finish

Dear Dick,

I’ve got an ongoing problem that’s really starting to put a crimp in my sex life. Guys I fool around with seem to be able to last a long time without ejaculating, but I’m always ready to go within a few minutes! To reference a recent Glee episode, I have to think about old ladies in their panties for a minute before I can start going again, and it’s getting to be a real drag.

Any suggestions?

Did It in a Minute

Dear Did It,

Premature ejaculation is a bummer. Sometimes it's biological—your body just behaves this way; sometimes it's due to training because when you first started diddling you needed to make it quick so that you wouldn't get caught by a parent or sibling. You may need to see a sex therapist, but before you do that let me make some (much cheaper) suggestions:

1. Be of Service

Remove the emphasis off your linguine of love and instead take time to please your partner. No man will turn down the extra attention, and when he's getting closer to completion you can better time your finish.

2. Stay Slightly Out of Reach

When you're working your guy, keep away from his hands. That way he won't accidentally work you into a frenzy before you're ready.

3. Tease Yourself

This isn't to say that you should keep your privates sequestered like a nun. As you're helping him along, give yourself a little tease. Work up those sensations then stop yourself before things go too far. This kind of "touch and retreat" method may help train you to handle the excitement.

4. Tell Him What's Up

Guys LOVE knowing that what they're doing is turning you on. It feeds their ego and the sex (because, as Dear Dick often says, great sex begins in the brain). So if things are getting close, tell him. But do it as a compliment. That way it's not a buzz kill, it's a sex thrill.

5. Mix It Up

If you're the poker, consider using your fingers or toys some of the time. They add naughtiness and variety, and let you last longer.

6. Keep Going

Some guys don't lose their erections after ejaculating. If you're one of those men, replace the glove and start again. Yes, the penis can be sensitive but you can work through that. If you do drop your rock then immediately devote yourself to his pleasure, letting him know that you can go again—and plan to because he's so frickin' amazing! (See, there's that ego-feeding-the-brain-feeding-the-sex thing again.) Then, after 20 minutes or so, you’ll be good to go, and the second orgasm is likely to be a much longer time in arriving.

Try these things out and see how they work for you. If they don't, then seek out professional help.

 







Dear Dick isn't a doctor or health worker of any kind, but he did struggle with quick completion as a young buck. Fortunately, he's taken care of that situation and is happy to write about his experiences.

Grindr

I admit, one of my reasons buying Android phone was because Grindr for Android had finally been released. Been wanting to try that piece of gay-amazing-thing-a-ma-jiggie for awhile. Fridae and Trevvy are sooo last year, don't you think?

Last night when I flipped Grindr on my phone, I found someone from old gay scene (you know you know, you should also remember someone or two from when you were first introduced yourself to local gay circle). He wasn't that young when I first knew him. But now, seeing his face again after some time. Man... How time flies so fast. Although he's balding now, and looks older more mature, I still recognize him (this doesn't reciprocate, though).

Me: "Hei, Ko XXX?"
XXX: "Who's this?"
Well, it's not like I did something something more than just chat with him back then :p

To much surprise, I realized that the gay circle around here is not really different than what I knew 8 years ago (yeah that was when I first knew IRC and Trevvy). Only now it exists on different and much modern package, that is Grindr.

Owh, and if you see someone on Grindr with nick ++Chris++, that's me :)

Hong Kong - Macau Trip

Pictures worth more than a thousand words. Anyone interested joining me next time? :)

The Woman in Black

Woman In Black, and it's not the sequel of Will Smith's Men In Black, no. It's the first movie starred by Daniel Radcliffe post Harry Potter era.
I instantly wanted to watch this movie ever since I saw the trailer awhile back ago. And yesterday I had the chance to watch it with my family.

Daniel Radcliffe, the Harry Potter boy now takes adult role by playing as Arthur Knipp, a single parent whose wife died laboring their only son. Kipps has been having visions of her and is facing financial problems along with stress from the law firm he works at.
Knipp works as a solicitor in a law firm and he was on the verge of being unemployed, except if, he's up to the task finishing the paperwork for the estate of Alice Drablow, who owned an English manor known as the Eel Marsh House.


Eel Marsh House stands tall, gaunt and isolated, surveying the endless flat salt marshes beyond the Nine Lives Causeway, somewhere on England's bleak East Coast. Here Mrs Alice Drablow lived - and died - alone after the death of her husband and her stepson Nathaniel. Kipps is quite unaware of the tragic secrets which lie behind the house's shuttered windows. He only has a terrible sense of unease. And then, he glimpses a young woman with a wasted face, dressed all in black, at the back of the church in the graveyard to one side of Eel Marsh House. The locals not only cannot or will not give him answers - they refuse to talk about the woman in black, or even to acknowledge her existence, at all. So, Arthur Kipps has to wait until he sees her again, and she slowly reveals her identity to him - and her terrible purpose.

Although the plot itself is not that good, this movie offers surprise attacks to keep you entertained during the show. Many times you will jump on your seat as the ghost appears screaming, or just simply the raven flies out of the furnace. Unsurprisingly, group of teenagers who watch with me in the cinema loudly screams many many times, often I got extra shock from their terrifying horror screams rather than the movie itself. Recommended for couples on a date, especially if you have easily scared boyfriend : p

From his drool-inducing naked role in Equus, to Arthur Knipp in Woman in Black, I think Radcliffe has been maturing. Not to mention that stubble that makes him looks smoking hot hot hot :D
Although admittedly, Harry Potter movie franchise is not that good compare with the experience you might have reading the books.

Next in line: Johnny Depp's Dark Shadows

Random Weekend

It's weekend! And I'm in Jakarta for holiday. Yet there's a big 'but' in the end of those sentences.
BUT I cannot go anywhere during this weekend.
I just had minor teeth surgery which made my teeth looks like vampire fangs, and not the pretty kind. Sob... And why on earth did my dentist decide to do this on weekend T.T
If you're like me which barely spends your days at your hometown, that is a big disappointment. Oh well, at least this MONDAY she will fix it up. The teeth I mean.
Until then I will restrain myself from public appearance. #determined

And I got a very weird dream last night, about my recently-resigned senior Tom, I dunno why all of a sudden I had a dream about him. And erotic dream even more! Well, I admit he's kinda hot with his stubble and voice (he really can sing btw). And I suspected him gay (He once accidentally splashed 'that bag is cute' phrase during conversation, duhz!). But never before I got attracted to him sexually.
In that dream I remembered him being naked and I can see that he has shaved and cut p*beep*s. Ah Tom, why do you have to resign so fast...

And here's, my fellow blogger, one hillarious video to conclude my random post for today. Hail Lohan! Hail Killam! Just click at the image to play..

最近...

一个人旅行也许更有意思

Perfect

Perfection is, broadly, a state of completeness and flawlessness.
The term "perfection" is actually used to designate a range of diverse, if often kindred, concepts. These concepts have historically been addressed in a number of discrete disciplines, notably mathematics, physics, chemistry, ethics, aesthetics, ontology, and theology.

Just today watched How I Met Your Mother and heard Ted said that being a couple is not about finding your perfect match, finding the exact you in your partner, but rather you have to learn to accept his weakness and quirkiness.
And just recently had I realized, that we are two different personalities that needed to be united. Hong Kong trip taught me that.
To merely say accepting weakness and quirkiness is just simplification of what actually lies upon you in relationship. There are a whole lot matters to consider, like difference in what values you both holding on to, the way you handle problems, and the way you two working it out if there is something happen.

For me, this is something we all need to remember when committing ourselves into a relationship. Enough blabbering Chris :b

I am Animal, You are Animal, Aren't We?

 Love Triangle

 Solitude

Insemination

Celebrating Life

Don't you think that the second picture kinda resembling sperms looking for its way to inseminate? Lol...
Another random shots using my phone camera :-)

Baggage Claim

It's hard not to involve feelings, when you fool around with someone out of your league.

You tend to claim him for yourself. ~Chan~

Those words stabs me right there. Right on THAT spot.
I'm not hinting that I am fooling around though, so keep that thought for yourself :-)

Random Thursday Playlist

For all of you who's also experiencing random Thursday afternoon..

1. Taio Cruz - Feel Again
2. Auburn - All About Him
3. Taio Cruz - I Can Be
4. Disney Rave - It's A Small World
5. Agnes Monica - Paralyzed Yes, I listen to Agmon, laugh all you want!
6. We The Kings - Say You Like Me

Feel Again

i believe that in time my heart will heal again
and i believe that in time my heart will feel again
so i keep on holding on (yeah)
so i keep on being strong (yeah)

cos i know one day i'm gonna feel again
i know one day i'm gonna feel again
and i know although my heart hurts now
i'll find a way to get up off the ground
cos i know one day i'm gonna feel again

i believe that this heart of mine can make it through
and i believe that my heart can make it over you
so i keep on holding on (yeah)
so i keep on being strong (yeah)

cos i know one day i'm gonna feel again
i know one day i'm gonna feel again
and i know although my heart hurts now
i'll find a way to get up off the ground
cos i know one day i'm gonna feel again

and though it's hard for me to breathe
and even harder to believe
i know that one day i'm gonna find
i'm gonna be just fine

cos i know one day i'm gonna feel again
i know one day i'm gonna feel again
and i know although my heart hurts now
i'll find a way to get up off the ground
cos i know one day i'm gonna feel again