That Guy From DVD Store

Nah, this is my second post of this day, hehe.

Do you remember about my previous post about this cute guy, the owner of the DVD store near my dorm?

He got down from his motorcycle and detached his helmet. And when I saw him, I was speechless. Man, he is gorgeous. Well maybe not that gorgeous, but still he is adequate. I presumed he was on his 27 or 28. He’s just too gorgeous to be straight, haha. But I knew that he really is, cos I didn’t feel that ‘something’ feeling on him.
Then he opened the door for us and we (me, Ty, and him) entered the rental. While I browsed through the shelf looking for DVDs, sometimes I took a peek on him. Whoa, he was cute. Cool and calm.

Wakakak, I was sooo damn wrong about him lho. Cos tonight when I visited that DVD store with Ty, I heard he (I mean that DVD guy) is talking to his-obviously-gay-friends sooooo EFFEMINATELY, lol. Waving his (or must I say her? Lol) hands while talking and of course he used that “bahasa gaul” which made me laughed out loud. Auhhh, he broke the cool guy image I’ve had of him before in my mind. Here’s I write parts of his words as well…

--What he said: “Eiiii, mana ada itu lekong yang mau ???”

+Proper Indonesian: “Eiiii, apa ada pria yang mau dengan hal seperti itu???”

=In English: “Eiiii, which man would want such a thing???”

--What he said: “Ratu, yey mau ke mana? Nggak sindang bareng kita-kita aja?”

+Proper Indonesian: “Ratu, kamu mau ke mana? Kenapa tidak bareng kita saja di sini?”

=In English: “Ratu, where do you wanna go? Why don’t you join us here?”

I’m sorry for ones who don’t understand Indonesian language well x-)

Whew, in a flash, I lost my interest in him just that, wakakakak.

Ah, we could be wrong sometimes, could we? Lol.

Meme From Defiant

Haha, another funny meme from dear Def~~~

The objective of this meme is to write the dullest entry ever, lol. Nah, here’s mine…

“I pick my mobile phone then see my message box. I see no message for me today, duh. Then after that, I put it again on the table, waiting any message to come.”

Huehehe, I myself will never make a post like that though, it’s kinda boring to be read. Nah, like what Def said that misery loves companies, then I’ll tag these following bloggers:

• Cherry
• Ed
• Isaac and Leonard
• Tim
• Yukisan

Deep Shit!!

Yesterday my friend Hen accidentally caught me while I was opening sgboy.

Haissss, now I’m wondering what he did see on my screen ya. Did he see anything suspicious that time???

Duh, must be more careful next time or else people will start noticing that I’m gay :-(

Chris the Gym Boy

“Skinny?? How uncool...!”

That’s what the girl in that L-Men High Protein Milk advertisement used to say blatantly, LOL. Well, come to think about it, those words somehow stab me when I heard it. Yah, cos I myself have that so-said skinny posture like she said, hahaha. It’s not like I hate my skinny body after all, I like it this way though. But then I thought it will be better if I do a little work out again (cos I used go to gym back then) to make it a bit more shaped. Since it is holiday and so, thus I do have much time for reshaping it a little. Well, nothing to lose la.

When I was in high school, I was sooo skinny, really really skinny. I was about 47 kg (103.62 lbs) weight, wahhh, so skinny, wasn’t it?

Then one day, my friend Lie said this,

“Mmm, Cs, how it sounds if we both go to gym? I want to have my body bigger.”

“Wah, it’s so unexpected of you to ask me to that kind of place. Why is it?” Well, of course I’m asking him this, I’ve known he hates work out or do any exercise before.

“Just you know, if we keep this skinny body up till we aged, we’ll have that old-dented-look-man posture. And I don’t want that.”

“Okay2, I’d like to. Just tell me when ya.”

Well, that was our conversation. And of course, as he said, I don’t want to have dented body in the future, so we decided to work out together. But in the end, he still didn’t working out even once, hehehe, he wasn’t too determined ya.

Then I went to the gym with another friend of mine, Cent. I asked him to accompany me cos I was so unfamiliar with those gym’s stuffs, while he have been working out for a couple of months.

Me talking to myself: Heee?? What is repetition? What is bench-press?

Me (again): How much do I suppose doing these things?

Me (and again): Which exercise is actually needed? There’s so much of it. Duh.

The first time I did it, it was really torturing…. The bench-press was way so heavy, the repetitions seemed endless (yes they were and always are), and those stupid pranks on the corner daringly laughed at me. Eeeeeghhhh, what a thoughtless prick!! You can’t imagine how I wanted to throw’em a stack of dumbbells in the first place.

One day after, I woke up in the morning with those stiff on my whole body parts. Even I could hardly move myself to take a bath lho. Ouch ouch. More gentle please…

Then, the days after, I kept working out in the gym, wuah, what a struggle, lol. But the gym itself wasn’t that bad lho. There were many cute hunks also working out, all sweaty and hot (literally and figuratively, hehe). There were also those personal trainers gathered around with those muscled body, and (I knew some of them) also gay, haha.

Not to mention, there were also many obviously-gay guys at the sauna (always in sauna, weren’t they?). Yah, after those torturing days, I’ve managed to gain weight and height a little and got a bit shaped, and so I was at the prom, looked fabulous and gorgeous (at least I thought so, hohoho) with that shaped body and tuxedo. Humhhh, all those torturing days were paid-off at last.

Yah, now dat I never work out again since that time, my six-pack abs is hardly visible, my used-to-be perfect chest is back to its origin flat shape, then almost nothing left from my working out days, lol.

Thus, my holiday resolutions are:

1. Working-out, getting my body shaped.

2. Improve my foreign languages knowledge.

3. Finish the website I’ve been establishing.

4. Maybe (if I’m not busy with those 3 above), going overseas for a vacation.

What are yours?? I’d be glad to know =)

8 Different Points About Your Perfect Lover

Haha, it’s my first time being tagged by a meme lho, thanks to dear Defiant, luv u too dear ~~~:p

But it’s okay, since I was actually planning to write a list about the points of my perfect boyfriend back then. Oww, can someone be my lover?? Lol

8 Different Points about Your Perfect Lover

1. Sharing similar interests with me

Usually it will be much easier for us to bring some conversation if we do have some things in common, but I don’t really care about this one cos I usually can talk about almost anything (well, except sport actually, I’d rather play it, not talking about it).

2. Well-mannered

I mean he must know how to behave and how to treat other people well.

3. Love me tenderly

Of course he must be someone who can resist my moody behavior, haha. Cos sometimes when I don’t feel good, I can be really peevish and/or melancholic lho. But I’m really nice most of the time.

4. Open-minded

This also means he isn’t egoist yet flexible. So we can compromise (just compromising, not changing la) our differences and where this relationship goes.

I don’t really looking for so-called soulmate, as long as we can keep our difference balanced, well that’s enough for me.

5. Smart and not boring

I’ve ever met this J guy I knew from my friend. He is sooo full of himself thus dominated the conversation with stuffs he likes, stuffs he dislikes, his friends, his ex, his…, his…, his…, and blah blah blah blah ‘till he could barely listen what I wanted to say. Yuck!!

Anyway, what I’m saying is I like guy who can bring the conversation flow and make me feel comfortable.

For me, sometimes I just feel need to add some spiciness to our relationship (cos I’m easily bored with routine activities; well hey, I’m Gemini after all), so he must be adventurous and not daring to try something different.

6. Enjoy shopping and cooking wif me

Cos I do really like shopping you know, especially when I’m stressed. But I’m not that shopaholic actually. And at least he knows how to cook something simple, such as soup or instant meal la.

7. Dependable

He’s a responsible person and can be a person I depend for (Which I rarely do, but when it happens, I really mean it).

8. Enjoy Sex

Last but not least… Lol.

And the lucky ones to be tagged with this meme are…..deng dennggg…:

1. Ceusm (Just feel like to disturbing your vacation =D )

2. Ed (Sorry Ed, I forget your blog address already)

3. Cherry (the first time tagging you Cher, hehe)

4. Fa (Knew you made it 100 not just 8, but try to choose the most essential, k)

5. Louis (I’m not the first one for tagging you with this meme, lol)

6. Tim (Hi Tim, how are you lately?)

7. Harvey (You’ve also been tagged by Defiant lho, hehehe)

8. Isaac and Leonard (Sweet and happy couple)

Brokeback Mountain

Yesterday I just watched the famous “Brokeback Mountain” the DVD. Kinda late, eh?

I rarely got the right occasion watching this movie though. Usually if I was going to watch, any friend of mine would just come, ruin my chance. Nah, here’s my comment after watching it:

SHIT!!! I hate this movie…!!! I hate Annie Proulx for making story ending like that!! Shit!! Why didn’t she make this story ended happily???!!!? Should you made it like this, Annie?? Should you?? Damn!!

After few hours…

I just couldn’t get enough cursing till I could barely write this post at last. But still, damn it! I just hate the sad (read: suck!) ending story, you know, when everything was settled well and perfect, then they just stupidly put some miseries as a spoof (by making someone dead, for instance). Especially in this film, why should they kill Jack that way? Why don’t they let Jack and Ennis together and live happily ever after? (I guess there’s no need to tell you the plot here ya; you must have watched it after all.)

Anyway, despite my anger to the plot-maker, Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal I think were perfectly matched together. Their acting as gay couple also awesome (or they weren’t acting at that time?? I wish, lol). They also cast Anne Hathaway from those Princess Diary movies who also played perfectly as Jack’s (Gyllenhaal)’s wife. And of course, we can’t forget Michelle Williams from the Dawson’s Creek as Ennis (Ledger)’s wife. Bravo Ang Lee!!

Stupid Proulx!!!

P.S.: I heard that after the making of this film, Ledger and Williams were married lho. Yah, at least I know Gyllenhaal is still single la, haha, just jokin’ guys, jokin’.

Struggling for a Haircut

Now that my hair is getting long, I should go to the salon coz I don’t really like having it long. Nah nah, it means one: another visit to the Anata Salon at the Setiabudi. Well you know, if you do reckon in one my previous posts, I’ve written about the pedicure guy there who practically tried to flirt with me.

I didn’t think he could be that bold lho, since it kinda crowded there at that time. And he tried to flirt me when he was doing a pedicure for a woman there, i.e. batting his eyelashes to me, staring at me for so long, peeking me when I got my hair washed, and as cherry-on-top of it he smiled at me and Ed before he entered the men’s bathroom. Could he be more obviously inviting than that? Wah wah, what a dauntless man he is. Pity him, I didn’t have intention to follow him, so we (me and Ed) just sat there and laughed out loud after that.

Also; I didn’t mention it in my previous post about Anata but when I was entering the hair-washing room there is this group of obviously-gay-employees stared at me practically from head-to-toe, if you know what I mean. It did really make me uncomfortable, you know.

I thought, “Geeez, don’t they have any manager here? A gangbang like this can severely ruin customer’s mood (for instance: me!!).”

Eugghhhhhhhhhh. *tremble tremble*

When I asked Ed few days ago to accompany me once more to the Anata, he said

“Cs, are ye sure about dat? Don’t you remember ‘bout that sexual-harassment-effort that pedicure guy attempted to you? Moreover, that gangbang over the hair-washing room. Duh... as if there’s no another salon here.”

Yah, I must admit, Ed’s right. But well… you know, considering I did get the perfect haircut there, I don’t really mind la. Haha, stubborn me.

Hey… I will make this challenge with Ed, that if that pedicure-guy or another Anata’s employee attempts to do that flirting-thingie again, we’re going to reply. The winner is the one who do the best reply or get most flirt. Huh, let them see who's the boldest. And of course, there’s prize for the winner: the winner will get a lunch treat from the loser. Lol, isn’t it interesting, Ed??

P.S: Oh well, I forget that Ed is going outta town for a few days.

Case status: Pending!

Ting Tong ... A Time For Trivia Quiz

Few days ago, a friend of mine brought these topics to our discussion:

When was the first time you realized that you’re gay?

Well of course, the one who brought this topic is also gay, lol.

Hemmm, I myself dunno precisely the time I realized my gayness, haha. Maybe when I was a toddler?? Coz I could remember that when I was in kindergarten I have developed a liking for male, though. Even though me, as a kid in that age, didn’t know about gay or lesbian but I knew it for sure that I like men more than women, lol.

Do You Have Any Reason to Be Gay?

I think you could conclude the answer for this question from my previous answer. I don’t have any particular reason. Oh, what a silly question I think; I didn’t choose to be gay or straight, cos I couldn’t, d ya understand that, my sweet friend?

Some people believe that gay is genetic. Actually I myself do believe that a little: That if someone in your family is gay, usually there also another gay in dat family. I’ve barely proved it, you know.

Case study: My old friend Al is gay and (just we both know) his uncle is also gay.

I am gay (I admit it once more) and my cousin, Dre is also gay.

Maybe not your close relatives, as long as in your family tree, there also possibilities of gayness =) But this theory is just in my mind, you don’t have to believe it, though. It hasn’t yet proven scientifically.

Some other people believe that gay child is a product of a family in which Mother (practically, a woman) are a dominating person.

Nope! Of course I can easily break that silly theory. For the-one-who-made-that-silly-theory to know, my family isn’t like that. I do have happy family where my Dad is a dominant person. I love my Dad; I love my Mom, both at the same capacity.

My conclusion: This theory is WRONG for my case, with the capital W-R-O-N, and G.

In a magazine I read a long time ago, there’s this article: Gay: a Cool Lifestyle

Heee?!? Are the guys who make that stupid article insane? They got it all wrong! They made it sounded like people just following the trend to be gay. Oow, I know, it’s just like you choose to buy a Banana Republic cool coat you like and after you bored then you buy Esprit one. Sigh, how naïve (read: stupid) the writers are :-/

Me, for instance, is naturally gay (bisexual, duh). I didn’t follow my gay friend, okay. Haizzzz, no further comment about it la.

“Have I ever regretted in my life that I am gay?”

Then my friend asked me that, at last.

Of course I have. Once. Or maybe twice. I cried at those times. It was really hard for me (and I do believe it also hard for some other gay people, not just me).

“Why did God make me like this?” is one question I used to ask to myself at those times.

But then I realized that God is also love gay people. If he doesn’t love us, why did he make some gay men between all those so-called straight people? It must be for a good reason, isn’t it? And now I just go with it. Then I thought nothing wrong with me for being gay.

Well, actually I kinda quote it from what Emmet said in one episode of Queer as Folk*. Have you ever watched it? It’s really good lho. I recommend you to watch it, especially for one who just realizes his ‘difference’, if you know what I mean. LOL.

Okay, that’s the summary of what we have discussed at that time. Haha, I think it is needed to discuss things like this sometimes. I didn’t write his name here, cos he asked me to.

My special note for him: My friend, I don’t think anonymity is a proper way, since you didn’t do anything to be ashamed of. Well, if you still insist…=)

*Queer as Folks: A ShowCase TV Drama (American) about Pittsburgh’s gay people life.

What Ed Said About Me Loving Chris

As I thought before, when Ed read my post about me loving Chris and our I-hope-it-will-be-happen marriage, he said to me this,

“What???!!”

“There must be something error in your head, Chris!!”

“That is the biggest mistake you’ve ever made!”

Lol, if I could choose, I wouldn’t pick that bakka-chan as my loved one, really. I would pick somebody else: maybe a guy I met on Paskal Hyper Square or that Y guy I like before, as long as not that bakka Chris. Gosh, I really can’t understand my feelings toward Chris, though.

PS: For the readers who got flustered, my name is Chris and right now I love a guy with a same name as me, Chris. So don’t get it both mixed up, okay.

Busted !!

Yesterday I just read a post in this interesting blog. He just said that everyone started to reckon his homosexuality. It all was started in his uni and he really scared if any of his family members hear that.

Then after the news spread, everyone starts visiting his blog, just to ensure whether he IS really gay or not.

I just hate it when it happens. I mean when all the so-called-straight-people-who-starts-to-notice-that-you’re-gay looking at you and get away whenever you approaching them. Sigh, how can they be so cruel? Sometimes I just can’t understand the way they think.

I feel sorry for him, though. Sooner or later something like this is going to happen to us (I mean discreet gay people here). All I can say is just,

“Go through to it, man. You know that you don’t do something wrong for being gay.” (Even if I don’t know him personally)

I must admit, I was really scared of something like this to happen when I started this blog back then. What if my friends know? What if my family knows? Well, I suppose I don’t really care if my friends know me being gay, though. I will (maybe) eventually let everyone knows that I’m gay, except my family. I can hardly imagine if someday, my lil’ bro or my mother say to me,

My Fam: “Chris, I know that you’re hiding it from us. But we all know that you’re gay.”

Me: *speechless*

My Fam: *crying* “How could you be like this?? I didn’t raise you to be gay…”

Me: *still speechless*

Moreover if my family starts ignoring me or so, I can’t bear it for sure. I really love my family: Dad, Mom, and my little brothers. I really really really can’t imagine if I someday can’t hold them again, can’t talk to them, and even more they don’t want to see me again. It really hurts me you know, even when I just think of it. I think it will hurt me more than I hurt them for knowing that gay fact of mine.

So it does really make me concern when something like this happens to this man. I hope he can go through it well. Sincerely.

Umm Sir, Food Is Ready Now

Do you need more, Sir?
[Source : Reuters Photos]

Wah wah wah, how cool it is for having a butler like this. Awww, just want to have it later on marriage, haha (if I would married anyway, lol).
Just got this news from my friend, here I will give you the complete news I've quoted from news.yahoo.com.

~No Sex please, we're British butlers~

LONDON (Reuters) - Forget the quintessential image of the British butler as the epitome of discreet decorum.

"Butlers in the Buff" has proved such a business success as half-naked waiters in Britain that the firm is now off round the world to market the ultimate "male order" service.

The company, whose waiters wear only a bow tie, collar, cuffs and a bottom-revealing apron, is the brainchild of former Royal Marine Jason Didcott who turned entrepreneur after serving in the Gulf and Bosnia.

Determined to find a tasteful alternative to strippers and pole dancers, he lays down strict rules -- each waiter undergoes a scrupulous police check and drink-fuelled clients are firmly told to keep their hands to themselves.

"What we are looking for is James Bond in a butler outfit. We want them to be cheeky but clean," he told Reuters.

"At the end of the party they can have their photo taken with the butler but that is as far as it goes. If they have too much wine and try to undo the apron, he says No Touching."

"We want nice, charming, gentlemanly types. At the interview we just check their upper body. We take their bums on trust."

The waiters readily admit to first night nerves -- but they soon conquer them.

Butler Dan Atkins said: "I love the job. I couldn't think of a better way to earn money. At first you're nervous but you soon forget your bum is on display and you get on with serving drinks and mingling."

Didcott, and his company partners Will Jones and Stacey Lynn, has 75 part-time butlers on his books to staff hen parties, corporate functions and the fast growing market of gay wedding receptions.

The butlers range from actors, dancers and students to personal trainers and even a hypnotherapist. "We are desperate to find more. We never have enough," he said.

Didcott is now ready to expand the horizons of Butlers in the Buff.

"We have a business model we want to franchise out. We have had so many people passing through London who have rung us and said they would like to do it. I'm thinking of North America, Australia and South Africa as first stops."

But Didcott, who when launching the firm did his first party for free as a half-naked butler, draws the line at any more parading of himself.

"At 37 I am over the hill in butler terms. My bottom retired three years ago."

[Source: news.yahoo.com]

A Trip To Istana Plaza

As I planned few days earlier, today I was going to Istana Plaza for ice-skating. We were 4 when we planned it back then: me, Sa, Ty, and Ot. But you know, sometimes wind spreads the info everywhere. And then so we were, headed to IP: me, Sa, Ty, OT, Dit, Ry (Dit’s girlfriend), Stev, Fan, Fanie, Guz, and Nez (Dit’s little sister) went to the Istana Plaza to go for skating. Whoa, just a lot wasn’t it?

Fanie, Guz, and Sa told me that they have never played skating before, that I must teach them how-to and so. Haha, I myself haven’t played it for few years, didn’t know if I still able to skate well.

Wah, when I entered the rink, I feel some cool sensation I like. It always happens when I feel really like something. And ice-skating is definitely one of my likings, haha.

I like the times when I’m skating around. It feels somewhat light…just like floating in the air. My friends surprised how I could skate so well. Hmmm, I myself dunno where I got that confidence for skating; just as the same as our bowling game I told you before. I just felt like I have been playing it for years or so.

We played about two and half hours till our feet were stiff, hahaha. It just happens every time, but still, I love skating enough to put aside my stiffness.

Nah, after we’ve tired skating we gathered beside the ice-rink to try the OSIM massage chair that we can use freely. Ahhh, feels like heaven, since our feet was weary after the ice-skating session we had. I thought maybe I should buy one of that OSIM chair, you know. Haha. Now that my weariness has gone, I felt ready for everything.

Well, maybe not everything…

Aackk!! My friends wanted to go to karaoke place (while I have known I couldn’t sing well). Gosh, what would I do? Mmm, maybe I would just let others sing. I would just quiet in the corner, zipped my mouth.

Things didn’t go as I planned, though. Still, my friends asked me to sing. So I picked Fa Ru Xue, a song by Jay Chou which I like. Wakssssssss, the song’s keys were so high, that I couldn’t reach it. So there I was, stupidly sang that out-of-tune Fa Ru Xue version of mine. Gosh, just couldn’t bear the shame. I promised, from now on I would accustom myself to sing much better.

We sang maybe seemed-so hundreds of songs until…I picked Tong Hua, my favorite song, by Guang Liang. I asked Sa to duet with me in that song.

“wang le you duo jiu”

“zai mei ting dao ni”

“dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi”

“wo xiang le hen jiu”

“wo kai shi huang le”

“shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me”

“ni ku zhao dui wo shuo”

“tong hua li du shi pian ren de”

“wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi”

“ye xu ni bu hui dong”

“cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou”

“wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le”

“wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li”

“ni ai de na ge tian shi…..”

We all started to sing that song aloud. And Ry started to cry…!!!?! What the heck!!

Then Stev skipped that song because of that. At that time I didn’t realize anything. I didn’t even know why Ry started to cry. Did I do something wrong with that song? Dit held Ry in his arms, tried to cheer her for what has happened.

Then Nez told me that that Tong Hua song reminds Ry for her recently-passed-away brother. Nez said that Ry’s brother used to like that song very much.

I feel so sorry for Ry, though. I really didn’t mean to make her so sad. I know she must be so sad, moreover her brother passed away not so long ago in a car accident.

So we started to sing another song to made Ry feel better.

I’m Sorry Ry, I didn’t know that that song also means a lot for you.

Well after that disaster karaoke session, we headed to the Aceh Road where we had our dinner there. I had a bowl of steamed noodles, Sa had a plate of rice noodles, Guz had chicken rice, while the others had fried rice. Yummm, so delicious…

After our dinner, we went home, coz it was so late in the evening. Mmmm, felt so sleepy.

When I calculated my expense today, I was shocked a little. Everyday like this and soon, my bank account will be over, haha. Geezzz, I've been so lavish these days :-/

Back to Nature

Wuahhh, today was so much fun…

Woke up in the morning, I didn’t know what I would do for the rest of the day. Actually I planned to play the games I’ve downloaded before on my computer. What a lazy Sunday, so I turned on the TV and started to watch ‘Crayon Sinchan’, lol. And then Guz send me a short message,

##Chris, what’re you doin’? I’m so bored, there’s nothin’ to do. Let’s take a walk la.##

Then I replied,

##Okay, sure. I’m preparing myself. So, where d ya wanna go?##

##Dunno, let’s decide later la, oke, prepare yourself##

We didn’t feel like to go just both, so we asked Jim, Fanie, and Han to go along.

Destination #1

Han suggested that we go to the “Strawberry Garden” at Lembang, so we can pick strawberries and enjoy natural strawberry juice. Haven’t been there before, we agreed. But pity us, they ran out the strawberries just the day before. It will take a week to wait the strawberries to regrow.

Thus we just bought and enjoyed a glass of strawberry juice each. Sat in the middle of strawberry garden, far away from the city crowd, it was sooo relaxing. The air was fresh and still unpolluted. I heard sound of water flowing in a small stream somewhere, gave me some peace feeling. The time also seemed to stop. Huaaah, I loved the ambience there. Sometimes, I’m going to visit that garden again for sure.

Destination #2

Then we headed to Mt. Tangkuban Perahu. Ye know, people there believe a myth that Mt. Tangkuban Perahu is used to be a real Perahu*. Actually its shape kinda resembles a boat; well maybe that myth is true somehow.

I’ve been here before, but it almost 2 years ago so I couldn’t remember it very well. We all wanted to go to Domas Crater, the most famous crater there. So we walked about 1.5 km far through the forest. At first we enjoyed it there because the scenery is so fabulous and they got the freshest air there, but after about half hour walking in the forest we felt so bored. Oh, would we reach the crater soon?? I’ve got to pee (so as Jim).

When it almost got our last nerves, finally we reached the crater. Jim and I rushed into the bathroom there, wuahh it was so relieved.

Then we started to climb the mountain to reach the hot sulfuric water spots above. We reached it and rest our feet in the hot water spring. Hot!! You should try it once =)

We took few pics then we went to the top to view the scenery.

When we walked down the mountain, we met a gay couple (I could tell it, for sure, haha) and I smiled at one of them, he replied. Sigh, I just want it to be like them between me and Chris. That stupido! Oh okay, forget ‘bout that la.

If we thought the journey to the crater was hard, we were wrong. The journey headed back to our car was much harder. When we finally reached our car, our feet were so stiff that we can hardly move it, wakakaka. I hoped tomorrow my feet are okay since I’ve planned to go on ice-skating at Istana Plaza.

Destination #3

Time to eat!!! We were so hungry. So we went to “Sapu Lidi”, a place to eat where you can choose to eat in the middle of a wet rice field. I think they just sell the ambience there since no other place offer the same idea (eat in the middle of a wet rice field I mean). Of course, the price of foods there were really high and so. But I must admit, I like the atmosphere there, so I didn’t care about that expensive price:-p

We got a place in a hut beside a fish pond. A beautiful place to eat =)

We ordered rice, one grilled chicken, one smoked gurame fish, beef sate, roasted mushroom, a cup of sayur asam each, a plate of roasted ketan oncom each, and for desert I choose a plate of cheese-coconut surabi (whaha, eat like crazy).

It was so delicious!!!! I didn’t suppose it could be that delicious. I just looove it. For sure I will come back here someday.

After we ate all those foods, we took a rest for a while before continuing our little trip. Then when we looked at the bill, wakss, we had to pay Rp 60.000 each, quite expensive isn’t it? That means we 5 spent about Rp 300.000 altogether. LOL, my friends used to eat here and usually they just spent about half our expense each. Gosh, guessed we were too hungry that time.

Last Destination

Of course we couldn’t forget God, could we? So we went to the Laurentius Church and attended a Holy Mass there.

Then this is our trip for today. Feel so exhausted but happy. Maybe we should do it again another time. I hope I can post the pics we just took on our trip soon.

*Perahu : Small boat

Farewell Fireflies

Red summer sky has arise

Singing that incestuous melody

Song about you and me

Brittle as the dust, flying in the twilight

When did we start to lose? Let all fly away

Who’s singing that love song?

While you and me are separated away

I believe in my destiny

My love is lying out there, waiting for me

As the fireflies I see

Glowing that light

Searching for the soul mate which is yet to come

Maybe love is in another end of the dream

No way of living in real space

Sometimes I want to go back to the past

And try to hold you in my arms

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Haha, how can I be so sentimental? I myself can hardly believe that I was the one who write that poem. Hemmm, maybe it was just that I missed my ex, a thing I’ve never done before. Or maybe just because I want a boyfriend? Haha, another lonely syndrome of mine.

I don’t want to be lonely, but you know (as I told you before) the one that I love even doesn’t know that I’m also gay as him.

Maybe you think about why I don’t tell him straight about this, right? But buddy, wish everything can be so easy….

He is so sensitive and discreet about that thing. Once I’ve tried to talk to him this, but he kept try and hide it. As I said before in my post, I don’t want to be too frank with him about this, since it’s an important and big thing to him.

I’m trying to talk to him about how I feel (and that I know about him as well, haha). But I just can’t find the right moment. I wish Chris realizes my feelings for him, that I just want to be with him.

Bad Day Indeed

This afternoon, when I decided to go to the computer lab in my college, I didn’t have any slightest thought that I will be stuck here until…I dunno, maybe until the morning comes. Gosh, I hate it when it comes like this. Why me? Not somebody else :-(

15.00

I prepared before go to the computer lab, picked my stuffs and so. Was really excited to make few posts in blogspot. I didn’t think any bad luck was yet to come.

15.30

Arrived at the lab, innocently browsed along with my Opera browser, hoped find something interesting. Yuck!!! [SHIT]The internet connection was really slow, though. Even I couldn’t open absolutelyric.com to find some lyrics. Damn, fridae.com also wouldn’t open. Of course I couldn’t make any post. Got tired of waiting.

16.30

My friend Vi asked me to help her install an engineering software on her notebook. Surely, I helped her. But the prob is [SHIT] the local area connection dropped temporarily.

17.00

While I was trying to fix the connection [SHIT] the electricity also went down. So there I was, standing in the dark, waiting for the electricity generator to start.

17.30

Yan was coming, telling me that in the final exam my class got worse average score than our mid-semester exam. He told me that [SHIT] I might even get just B score for that lecture.

Then he left me alone. Thanks Yan, for ruins my mood :-(

18.30

Yes!! The circuit has been repaired and I thought I could continue with my blog. But noo, let the misery goes. [SHIT]There’s something wrong with the electricity switch in that lab so I couldn’t switch my computer on! And even when I tried using another computer in the lab, [SHIT] the internet connection was DOWN!!!!!!! And it would be so until the next day.

19.00

Prepared to go home, was fed up with all the things happened. But on top of that [SHIT] I couldn’t find the lab key so I should wait for someone to arrive and take care of the lab instead of me.

20.30

Ren came! So I rushed home, tried to forget all the bad luck happened.

Bowling Mastah

Have never played a bowling game before, I got so excited when Ty asked me to play tonight. Me, Ty, Lix, Sa, and Ly; we 5 went to Planet Dago, a bowling place near our dorm.

Ever since it’s my first time to play, I didn’t find much trouble to play it. Gosh, it’s so exciting. I didn’t know why, but I got some confident and strange sensation when I walked at the line, aimed the bowling pins, and swing the ball onto the target. It’s like I’ve played that bowling game for years or so.

My friends were so amazed, since I won the game easily, haha. Now that I’ve found my secret aptitude in bowling game, maybe I should rethink to be a bowler too, lol.

Next week we are going to try ice-skating at the Istana Plaza. It will be much more exciting than bowling, though. I like skating so much even though I’m just a newbie, haha. I used to play it at Taman Anggrek Mall, Jakarta when I was at the Junior High. At first, I often fall, but I tried hard for it. Ughh, I can’t wait for it.

P.S: Now that Ty mentioned it, I just realize that I got aches on my arms and thumbs. Ouch ouch. My fault for not warming-up before swinging those heavy bowling balls :-p

Can I Walk Wit U

Can I Walk Wit U

India Arie

I woke up this morning you were the first thing on my mind
I don't know were it came from all I know is I need you in my life, yeah
You make me feel like I can be a better woman
If you just say you wanna take this friendship to another place

[Chorus:]
Can I walk with you through your life
Can I lay with you as your wife
Can I be your friend 'till the end
Can I walk with you through your life (fades away)

You've got me wondering if you know that I am wondering about you.
This feeling is so strong that I can't imagine you're not feeling it too.
You've known me long enough to trust that I want what's best for you.
If you want to be happy then I am the one that you should give your heart to.

[Chorus]

Now everyday ain't gonna be like the summers day.
Being in love it really ain't like the movies screen.
But I can tell you all the drama aside you
And I can find what the worlds been looking for forever.
Friendship and love together.

[Chorus]

Can I walk with you in your life?
Till the day that the world stops spinning.
Can I walk with you in your life?
Till the day that my heart stops beating.
Can I walk with you in your life?
Can I walk with you
Till the day that the birds no longer take flight
Till the moon is underwater
Can I walk with you
Can I walk with you

This is the moment I've been waiting for
Can I walk with you
Can I walk with you
Can I walk with you

You are everything I've been looking for
Can I walk with you
Creative intellectual
Can I walk with you
Can I walk with you as your wife

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It’s a song from India Arie, just heard it yesterday at Ty’s room. I like this song, not just the melody but also the lyric. It kinda resembles my feeling for Chris rite now, haha.

But of course I will be a better man, instead of a better woman, lol.
And I will be a husband, not a wife. Chris will be the wife, instead of me, haha.

Can I walk wit u, Chris?

My 20th Birth Day Anniversary

Whoa, today just practically one of my best birth day anniversary. Thought it will be an ordinary day, I really didn’t expect something special would be happen today. Since today I still had an exam. Great wasn’t it? Lol. Yah, you know, my birthday is at the end of the academic year, it’s time when all the exams are waiting for us, so I usually could hardly celebrate my birthday merrily.
Oh my, since yesterday my buddy Hen send instant messages in Yahoo! Messenger to all my friends, telling them about my birthday. And so I was standing there, was congratulated by all my friends. Thanks Hen, that’s really kind of you =)
Then In the evening, another friend of mine, Ren took us to the Pasir Kaliki Hyper Square, a place where you can find many (when I say many, it really is MANY) food outlet. Well, simply you can say it is a food district. I had a plate of hainan rice and a bowl of hot chili noodle (unlike the name, it actually not hot at all).
We did a chit-chat or so until clock showed 10.30 PM then we went home. One that I really like from that Pasir Kaliki Hyper Square is that there are so many Chinese gay people there. I even found one who dauntlessly gave me a flirtatious smile while I was talking with my guys (huah, fortunately my friends didn’t reckon it).

Last year, Ren (when he was also in my dorm, before he moved to another dorm) also took me, Ty, and Ad driving around downtown, to counting down the minutes before my 19th birthday. We went at about 7 o’clock in the evening and driving around the town, dropped by many restaurants and food junction to enjoy our meals. Whaha, I have never eaten as much as that night, though. And at 12.00 AM sharp, they all congratulated me and prayed for me. And of course, we went to that last food corner for the day… that so-called Cikapundung River Gulai. In the morning (well I must say afternoon) right after, we four had a hangover because of that gulai and our drinks. Oh, how I love the moments we’ve shared together. I hoped that the time stops that night. Then I won’t forget that night for all my life=)

I luv you all =) Frenz forever....

Happy Birthday to Me

MyNiceSpace.com

*singing*
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday happy birthday
Happy birthday to..... me

Happy birthday Chris!!!!

Crazy In Love

Gosh, do you know what am I doing rite now at 1:25 am? I’m blogging becos I can’t sleep. All thanks to Chris (my junior and also my bakka-chan I mentioned earlier in my posts). All was becoz his face always spins around in my head. Now I realize it more, that I fall in love to that bakka-chan. I swear, from the beginning I never had an intention to love him. All was started from that jokes I made with Ed, about that bakka-chan and how naïve he was. But you know what? Now I can’t sleep, just because thinking of him, dat naïve guy I used to joke about. Shit.
How can I be so obsessed about him? Even I myself don’t know it. While I tried to sleep, I even imagined how it feels to hug him, feel his soft skin touch mine, hold him tightly while he sleeps next to me, kiss his lips, hold his hands in mine, arrrggggghhhh. That’s what I mean. Even when I’m writing this post I can’t escape myself from thinking about him.
Maybe it all begins when we meet this afternoon. He had an exam at that time. Because I’m the lecturer assistant for that lecture, I must been there to manage the exam, ensure things went well. There he was, working with his exam, looking somewhat gay with that partially-opened-chest green shirt. A necklace was dangling on his chest, white chest. I like it when he shows his chest, because it seems so white and soft. For two hours I saw him there. That made me realizes even more, that I want him to be mine.
If you remember, I’ve written posts about him several times, about how I like him and so. But in those posts I write about him just to make that X guy who stalks me goes away. I don’t like him, though. He was so annoying. But in this post it’s a different thing.

I even thought to ask him straight about how I love him and I want him to be my boyfriend, but that’s just the prob. He doesn’t know that I’m gay, just like him. Duh, what should I do? If I wait for him to realize about this thing, it will be too late, maybe we will have getting old, married with our fiancée or something like that. As I said before, he is so slow-moving and naive. But also as I said before, I don’t want to be so straight-forward about this sensitive thing. You know, certain people don’t like it when you talk about this with them. They will just fly away from you. And I don’t want that to be happening with me and him.
I like you, I like you, I like you, I like you….
I want you to be mine, Chris.
I really hope we can be together.
Maybe it will be funny, since our name is Chris. Chris and Chris. Mr. and Mr. Chris.
Hey, you know what, it will be funny if we can get through to it and sometimes in the future we get married (I choose Netherland as the place of course, since now Netherland is the only country that allows gay couple to be married).
The wedding itself must be simple. I will just invite our best friends and maybe our parents (if they know that their kids are gay, haha, and they approve our relationship). And Ed will be my best-man, because he will always will.
*the wedding march is playing*
We enter the hall, walking slowly, making our way to the holy altar. We use our best tuxedo, white ones, to symbolize our pure love. I’m looking gorgeous, and so is he. At the special seats our parents cry, just a little, tears of joy. Joy that their kids are getting married.
There on the altar we say our vows. Vows that we will always be together until our mortal destiny separate us away (and I’m sure we will). And then we exchange our rings. The priest blesses us and says that we are married couple. All the guests are cheering on us while us kissing, deeply yet softly. Our friend’s giving us blesses and hope that we will happy together ever after.
After the wedding ceremony, when all our guests have gone home, and there is only me and him, I will hold his hand in mine. You know, like in those romantic movies, I will carry him to our room, which is decorated simply yet romantic. Open the door with my feet and put him on the bed. I sit next to him and I whisper romantic phrases, cuddle him slowly. Kiss him before we do ‘that’ thing, yah you know ‘bout that la. No need for explanation here.
Wakakakaka, what a dream…, crazy dream. Sooo gay.

P.S: Wait ‘till Ed hears about this (and also read this post). I don’t know what he will say (or laugh, for sure). Euggghhhh.